Hi! I’m Olivia, i’m 22 amd from the UK! The reason behind why i’m asking for any donations is that I need therapy, my mental health is stopping me from being the person who I’ve wanted to be from the start. I suffer terribly with anxiety, depression and PTSD and bulimia which i believe is caused by years of abuse from several people, one of which was my step dad.
It started in secondary school (From what I can remember). I was very badly bullied, the bullies used to physically attack me and were very nasty with their words. My social media was constantly being hacked and vile things were being sent to friends and posted on my page. Due to this I barely had any friends. No one knew but I was also being abused at home by my step dad, I tried to commit suicide a couple of times with both attempts failing but I used to self harm all of the time.
Shortly after I left school in 2015 I had a breakdown, I tried to commit suicide again and was very close but my brother found me and basically saved me. I tried to talk to my mother and open up about what was happening but she kicked me out and didn’t believe me, she did seperate from my step dad but that was due to marital issues. I don’t really remember how it came to light that my step dad was sexually and physically abusing myself and my sister but it only came to light 5 years ago. The police took most of my clothes, my phone, most of my belongings to check for ‘samples’ and to see if they could find anything. My mother was told she had to take me back in as I was underage and had nowhere to stay but still to this day, she doesn’t really feel like a mother to me… more like a friend. She has never apologised to me for the way she treated me.
A couple of months after my step dad was arrested, my brothers friend came to stay the night. He was messaging me, telling me to meet him in the living room and that he wanted sex. I ignored the messages and tried to fall back asleep until I was woken by him getting in my bed behind me, pulling my pyjamas down. He raped me that night and I cried myself to sleep. I tried to tell my brother but he didnt believe me saying that his friend said I was making it up because I wanted sex with him and he didn’t want to.
I have now met a lovely man, who has believed everything I said and has been very supportive to me and has been very patient when I have my breakdowns. I have been trying to get a full time job so we can create a good foundation and base on having a family one day but with my PTSD and depression etc, it is so difficult. So i’m just asking for a little bit of help so I can get the therapy and counselling I need to be able to get a job and to make my future better than my past.
Thank you for reading and I am so sorry if I have upset or offended anyone in the slightest! I appreciate any help that anyone could give!
The picture is of my emotional support animal, she’s the sweetest.
My paypal link is: https://www.paypal.me/oliviann99
Thank you, Olivia ❤