Where to begin… It’s after 5am, I’m awake with the usual anxiety induced overthinking and stress and just happened upon this website and figured I’d give it a try.
For starters, my husband was diagnosed with cancer nearly two years ago and has undergone two operations… Following the second operation (to remove the lymph nodes in his torso) he ended up with a hernia and had to change jobs from working in a warehouse to behind a desk. With the job change we lost our medical insurance and have been turned away by most other insurance companies for pre-existing medical conditions (his cancer diagnosis and me with anxiety and high blood pressure), while the ones that will insure us cost about the same as a house payment each month. The trouble is, he was never even cleared or told he was in remission; the last blood work results still showed cancer markers to be elevated and that was a week before the insurance through his previous job dropped the coverage… We only qualify for Share of Cost Medicaid and can’t take a trip to the emergency room each month just to meet that cost requirement, plus he already has several thousand dollars worth of medical bills.
I have my own health issues aside from mental health and high blood pressure, but I’m most concerned about him.
To top it all off, we’ve been looking for a new home and are having trouble with the amount necessary just to move in somewhere with the cost of application fees and whatnot.
I’ve only recently started working again and it’s only part time, working from home, with very little money and no benefits. I’ve been unable to work outside of the home because we’ve been taking care of my father-in-law who was left paralyzed on one side following a third massive stroke a few years ago. He’s needed nearly ’round the clock care and we were the only ones to step up until less than a month ago. I’m currently looking for a job that I can maybe work part time or overnight as we have two children in school, my husband works during the day and we have only one vehicle. Working during the day for me isn’t an option unless I have a day off during the week because our kids have frequent doctor’s visits and we have no one else who can take them.
These are just a few of the concerns that keep me up most nights… I’m seriously at my wits end. Before my grandma passed away I had all the hope in the world, thanks to her. Now… it’s hard to find any peace of mind.