To anyone taking the time to read my post, I’d like to thank you in advance for your time and consideration.
I am a 31 year old woman who has been coping with mental illness for the better part of 20 years. I have a major depressive disorder coupled with debilitating anxiety, which often presents as agoraphobia. This means that I am unable to leave my home quite often due to paralyzing fear. I suffer from terrible physical and emotional torment on a daily basis, even though I am persistent and consistent with the medication I’ve been prescribed. I am currently a recipient of disability benefits because of these issues.
I live with a roommate because of the financial constraints that come with being on government benefits. Please, do not think that I am ungrateful for the help that I receive, as I am painfully aware of what life was like before I applied. Having a roof over my head had been the most important goal in my life, and I am greatly relieved to be sheltered, regardless of the living arrangements. However, even at a reduced cost (by having a roommate,) I find myself stuck in mental health limbo.
I am completely unable to afford the ability to get well. I can either eat for the month, or go to one single therapy session. I have attended multiple free sessions and tried to get as much help as is available to me within my financial bracket, even trying to pay reduced rates offered by very generous professionals and going without proper food for weeks. However, living this way has only exacerbated my mental health issues and I fear the damage it is doing to me as I’ve been getting worse, not better. I feel like a prisoner of my circumstances.
I feel like I am an intelligent, persevering, strong woman that deserves the chance to fight for her life and make something out of it. I am desperate and determined to be a success; to overcome these struggles and be a productive member of society. I want to be able to make friends, fall in love one day, go to school, get a job I love, buy a home…I want a future. I deserve a future. Please help me fight for it.
If you can help me at all, I can’t begin to explain the difference it would make in my life. Thank you for reading.