Hello, I’m a 19 year old female who is suffering with many problems. I have been through so much since a very young age and ever since then I’ve been coping with it all by myself. I’ll keep it as short as I can…
From a young age I have been facing problems such as bullying, getting harassed both verbally and physically and have been sexually abused. Alongside this I have had many family problems and problems in school too. I never spoke of this to anyone until the age of 15/16 where I tried to commit suicide and even then I didn’t get much help. I didn’t speak to anyone after and just kept it all within me….
Going forward to 2020, I have lost both my Grandma (who has brought me up as well as my parents) and my brother (who I was really close too). Both died months apart my Grandma in hospital who I wasn’t able to say goodbye too and my brother passed away right next to me. I have been traumatised ever since and it still makes me cry to the point where I can’t even breath….
I have only had education up to my GCSE’s and couldn’t study ahead… I started working when I was 18 and just recently I have been off from work due to my bad health both mentally and physically. I have depression and anxiety which seems to be worsening over time, and makes me want to end myself at some points…
I have Tmj (Temporomandibular joint dysfunction) and severe orthodontic problems this is also a cause of my migraines. I also have very low iron and vitamins which causes weakness and passing out sometimes (I do take medication). I also have very bad back pains and Knee problems (Genu valgum) and is leading to my arthritis, I can’t even walk without pain or having to stop as my hip gets dislocated sometimes which is really painful. This has all been getting worse over time and has made my depression get worse. I have tried to get medical help, and have been getting referred here and there from age 16 and was told to wait for 2 years for my surgeries on the NHS but won’t be free if the waiting time goes past my 18th, and I did wait but as of COVID the waiting time had been extended and delayed. I had to then go back and get referred again but as of the long waiting list i have to wait another couple of years. Now I am 19 and suffering with my problems getting worse and worse, with this all going on I have not been able to find another job.
I have now started this page for my surgeries which I now need to get done privately I am in such a difficult and stressful situation, getting no help at all neither from family or friends. I need to get the surgeries done urgently as day by day it’s getting really difficult for me, and is making my life hard and tough taking my youth away from me. I’m in need of urgent help right now hence why I have made this page, I hope you all understand my situation and the difficulties I am going through, my depression is getting worse and the stress of trying to work out how I can do this is making me want to end my life, but I stop myself trying to find a way, or giving myself this hope that I can achieve this and not to let go that easily… please i have only a week left until i can get the surgeries.
PLEASE HELP ME AS I AM REALLY AT MY LAST STAGE!!!