Since Covid, it has been extremely harder to do everything in life . School, work, home life, family. It feels as if I cannot find anything that makes me happy or is fun. I suffer with MAJOR anxiety and depression (almost was convinced that I had agoraphobia – which is when you are so fearful that even leaving the house seems like an enormous draining task and is honestly scary and sad) Anyways, I’ve finally finally finally found a psychiatrist that has been working with me, letting me try various medications to see what can help me best, rather than just prescribing me something and saying ‘this will help’ ; then coming back month after month wondering when they are actually going to help you. When you can unclench your jaw, ease your shoulders, lay on your back and close your eyes without having a panic attack.
I finally, after 8,9 + years of taking various different antidepressants, anxiety, adhd, sleep medicine — where I couldn’t remember single pill names that had ever really helped me. Finally, I found a psychiatrist that let me be part of finding out what will work for me .
The only issue is my insurance won’t cover the prescriptions I need. I’m used to paying between $5-$10 for a prescription, and I almost started crying on the spot when the pharmacist said $597 and they had already tried to contact my insurance. I also gave them an extra RX card that wasn’t able to be used. I’ve lost my job partially due to COVID, partially due to me, myself and my own mental illnesses that I have been trying so hard to work on. I feel like I’ve gone nowhere, like this entire year of 2020 has been a dream and I’m just now waking up from it.
I feel like the right medication is going to going to give me a brand new start, or outlook on the rest of my life and I am trying extremely hard to stay positive and optimistic, but without active income the longer I wait the harder it feels.
If anyone could help out, At all, even a quarter. Like seriously it adds up and ANYTHING would help. This means literally the world to me. Like my entire life. I want to look forward to not feeling suicidal and only safe in my small 400 sq foot apartment.
Thank you for reading my story, even that I am appreciative of. I will continue to try to gather up money on my own/ calm my crazy and try to find a job but it’s never been this hard for me to do… Anyways, thank you in advance to anyone and everyone that donates even a penny. You’re making a bigger impact than you would ever think. I am always the one to be easy-going about money and sharing it with people , but as it usually works, those people aren’t around when you need them.
I would probably cry for a week if complete strangers helped me with this… like it’s pretty unbelievable but I thought… It’s worth a try, I don’t have much else to do!