Hi kind strangers,
I never thought I would be asking for money on the internet but I’ve recently been in a situation that has made it clear that I need to finally address the untreated anxiety and depression that I’ve had for so many years. I’m 28 right now and for as long as I can remember I’ve had one type of nervous habit or another that provided some type of “release” from whatever I was feeling. These habits ranged from forceful blinking, to pulling out all my eyelashes, to biting the insides of my cheeks until they bled. I’ve always written these things off as just something I just needed to practice not doing. The result of that was really just replacing one nervous habit for another.
It’s taken me so long to admit that I’m someone who actually needs help and the route I took to this admission involved being incredibly self-destructing. Even with all my other habits, I’ve never been a cutter but last week after a particularly hard day I impulsively sliced my arm with a knife that I was washing in the sink. I’m still trying to wrap my head around why I did it. In a way I’ve been disassociating from what happened. I’m sorry if this is too much to share with strangers but I’m really just trying to come to terms with what I did, who I am, and who I want to be right now.
I found a therapist and I’ve attached screenshots of her information below. Her bio really speaks to me and I feel like I would be comfortable meeting with her in order to see if we are a good fit. It looks like she is willing to work out some sort of payment plan/option but a lot of the cost would be out of pocket for me, even with my insurance.
For the time being I plan on trying to focus on doing some art, and writing, and trying to incorporate more physical fitness into my schedule as a form of my own therapy; but I really feel like it’s time for me to seek some sort of professional help. I’m finally mentally willing to seek this out but I really need some help in order to be in a financial place to seek this out. Any little amount that can be given would be so incredibly helpful and so very much appreciated. I hope that I’ll be able to pass this kindness on to someone else someday as well.