Doctor comes in the room after biopsy, pet scan to tell you your Cancer has come back after 6 yrs. It is now a stage 4 and has gone to your bones. Tears down your face, the Doctor leaves the room with such emotion, you look at your husband in shock! With tearful eyes, you grab his hand saying it will all be okay. Doctor comes in , says we must start Chemo today. I have been through Chemo 3 times and am now on my 3rd set of Chemo pills. they don’t last but about 6 months, but the Doctor says it’s time I wouldn’t of had.
I call my Daughter to tell her the news, she screams out frantic and afraid, saying No Mama you can’t leave me. it took everything I had not to fall apart at that moment. I told her, No baby, I’m gonna be around another 20 yrs.
I tell my Son and all he could do is hug and tell me I’m sorry Mama can we fight this? your not leaving me now are you? Tears running down his face.
This is hardest on the family for sure. I had to come home from working a great job 2 an a half yrs ago, due to the pain and issues with my Cancer. My husband and I had a 5 year plan to get ready, pay off and be able to retire in reasonably good shape. But the loss of income was drastic, I am now on disability. it’s not a lot.
As a Wife and Mother of course you want your family taken care of. I can’t stand thinking my husband will be left alone with all this . We are struggling, we are about 11,000. behind on medical bills and that’s having good insurance. I have put as much as I can on a credit card. We have fallen behind like so many others with the Pandemic. Although my husband worked through it. we had weeks of slow down and not the same monies.
Everyday we hope for more time, and everyday we see is a huge win. I have never asked for help from strangers, I’ve worked since I was 14. I haven’t even told my husband what I’m doing, I’m afraid he would be embarrassed and ashamed. I am now relying on the Kindness of others to possibly help us. and with this help maybe I can pay it forward to someone else. Thank you so much for taking the time to read my story. God Bless you and yours. Have a wonderful Day.