I thought that 2021 would be a better year than 2020, after a year of covid lockdown, but I didn’t know in what hell this year would bring me.
It all started in February through April, I was experiencing some low back pain, nothing out of the ordinary for me but the difference was that it wouldn’t go away after a couple of time. It would even worsens, leading to the condition I am in now.
One day of May, when I was bending to reach something on the ground I felt it, the pain snapped in my groin area. I sat down and it was less worse but still there. After that day, my trip to hell began. Sitting was giving me sharp nerve pain in my hip, then the front of my thigh and my knee… this is sciatica. Ironically, it’s the femoral nerve that is affected but it’s still called sciatica.
I was told that it could happen, it should be gone in week months. I saw two doctors in May and June, told me to go to physical therapy (which was a waste of money for me). I went for three months until mid August. In late June, I was in unbearable pain and no doctor gave me document for a sick leave then, I left my job. Stupid decision thinking about it but I wasn’t thinking rationally at this point.
In August and September, I went to the ER 2 times because the pain wasn’t going away. I did a scan (finally some imaging tests!) and they deemed it severe enough for a quick MRI. Results: Three protruded discs, two severe and one mild. The severe one are close to the cauda equina but there is still space (like 3 mm) so my case is severe, not an emergency because I’m not yet incontinent.
The problem is this, I’m living in Canada and how it works is like that : I’m on a waiting list for the neurosurgeon office at the hospital and he will call me for an appointment, then he will tell me I’ll need surgery (like the ER doctor told me) and I’ll go on a second waiting lists. My case deemed severe but not an emergency, I could have to wait 6 months up to more than a year before getting the said surgery.
The other options would be to go to a private neurosurgeon but the surgery would cost something like 15,000 CAD$, I have no job, can’t work with the pain and can’t even afford the fee it would take to juste take an appointment with him.
I’m suffering from this low back/nerve pain for 4 months now, it’s a type of pain no one should feel in his life but the human body being what it is, for some of us it’s inevitable. I feel like my life is on pause and that the world carry on without me. It is starting to take a toll on my mental health as well and just knowing that it could take 3 months before seeing the surgeon then a year before a surgery, it leaves me anxious and depressed.
My objective would be, of course, to go private and pay for the surgery. I don’t think I can get this amount, but I’m taking a chance and every donation is appreciated.
I hope that, if you are reading this, that you never have to feel this pain ever and, please, take good care of yourself.