I’m not really sure who is actually going to read any of this but to be honest part of me needs to get this all out. I truly do appreciate if you do read this and maybe even this might help others avoid making the same mistakes I did.
A little bit about me. When I was 22 I seriously thought I was on my way to being happy and successful. I’m 24 now and in that short time i’ve lost everything I saved and i’m losing my faith. I came out as gay over a year ago and it was one of the hardest things I ever did. Facing my parents trying to keep tears from my eyes as their was a possibility of rejection from the two people I love the most. I was one of the lucky ones and they accepted and just want me to be happy. Sounds good so far right. Well part of me wished I stuck with the pain and stayed in the closet. I started seeing guys here and there no one was really stable or looking for long term. Then bam, there he was my knight in shining amour. Everything I had ever dreamed about. We started talking and things got serious fast. I fell for him and his personality. He was just someone I could open up to about anything and everything. Things were good, no they were great. Then everything exploded and now here I am.
His mother passed away. And while he was out of town taking care of funeral arrangements so did his dog. He confided in me about the situation and was lost. I tried my best to keep him emotionally stable and things got worse. He had to collect some insurance money and get rid of his moms house. In the process of driving back home he was in a car accident 6 states away. Injured his leg and the insurance money wouldn’t show for another 6 months. He took care of the initial surgery bill but his at the time job did not offer benefits. I was able to help after with medication bills and it just began to be too much. I got asked everyday for more and more money. Turns out he got addicted to opioids which caused a strain between us. Being in the hospital cost him to lose his job and car and shortly after his home. He used his savings to treat his mother who had cancer for the past 3 years. The bills kept coming and somehow we managed to fight through the addiction and struggles. At this point I had taken out a loan. With him being broke and myself in a rough spot it was too much I started using my credit card. Everything I tried to get him home didn’t work due to the extensiveness of debt and injuries. It got to the point were he ended up starting the 1500 mile walk home. He made it 30 miles before he ended up in a clinic due to an infection on the prior injuries from the car accident. Using my credit card more and more I racked up over $10,000. He is close to having his leg amputated and I am frightened that he may not survive the shock or have the will to move on with therapy and a prosthetic. The emotional trauma to follow along with the bills. With all my current bills i’m lost and have no direction. I’m close to losing my car and that will result in my job too. Not to mention he is stuck at a shelter asking me everyday when he can come home. I’m struggle with the bills and I don’t have spare money to get him home. He has no family and mine has struggled their whole lives. I fell in love with him and started to question why god put us together only to keep us apart. I don’t want to lose my faith or my man which is why i’m telling my story here. I truly believe there are good people in this world and i’ve tried to be one of them. And now I am asking for another good person to if possible help me. Trust me when i say this pains me to ask for help.
Please if possible can you help not only me but my man and being us together. I fear the day I lose him or the day we give up. Anything is much appreciated and a blessing.
Below is a statement of my credit card. If i can just bring this balance down a little I can get him home. At least we would be together to figure the rest out.