Hey I’m Lin. It says I should tell you the actual story, so here I go.
I grew up in a poor family with a heavily abusive mother. I mean, she was abusive to all of us, but she mostly took out her anger on my dad and I. Eventually, my dad left. After that, she was solely focusing her anger into me. I was already being bullied at school as a young gay kid, so I had nowhere to go and no one to protect me. I started cutting, I would have anxiety and panic attacks. As everyone does, I eventually moved away and moved closer to my dad in Texas. I worked and lived my life. I tried to give my mother a second chance but that didn’t end well. I officially cut her out of my life October 2018 and I’m not looking back, but the scars are still there. Before that, i had landed a good job and moved in with my best friend in Austin, but I was still miserable and sick all of the time. Things just got worse and worse until February 2019, when I attempted to kill myself. I spent 10 days hospitalized for the attempt and when I got out, I found out my friend wanted to break out new lease and leave. This put us in a decent enough debt already, and I also had to quit my job and move in with my brother. I get calls and emails everyday about a shit ton of different debts I’m in. Im in the negatives in my bank account. I’m past due on credit bills and hospital bills and I’ve yet to be able to find a job. I feel like I’m already dead.
to cut it short, I just need help. I don’t know how this sounds to others but I know how it feels and I can’t breathe. Anything that you’re willing to spare would be so deeply appreciated you don’t even know. At one point, I even tried selling fetish porn and I hated myself for it. I just need help.