It is with desperation that I come to this site and to you, whoever may be reading this. I am a 26 year old caregiver to adults with disabilities, and have been doing this work for 7 years. While this work can be difficult and can quickly lead to burn-out, at the end of the day, I love it.
The issue is that this is not a well paying job. I got my own place at 21 and was able to make it work for 2 years. Then came the car expenses, the credit card bills, medical bills, etc. I had no choice but to move back home with my parents. I am lucky enough to have a place to live, but at my current rate, I will never be able to move out and be my own person.
I have struggled with mental illness since I was a pre-teen, and have been trying to overcome traumas and pain for years. Being depressed and having crippling anxiety makes it extremely difficult to get into any sort of routine, or even care about your future whether it be your mental health, finances, physical health, or relationships. You stop caring. Nothing is worth getting out of bed. You do the absolute bare minimum. This is where huge problems arise. Debt starts piling up, you start drinking more, you start eating like crap because you just don’t have the energy to care. You isolate yourself from friends and family because your mind is telling you, “You are a burden.”
When I moved back home, I was going into it with the idea that I would be improving all of these aspects of my life. I was back on medication, losing weight, stopped drinking and was enjoying having a social life again. I was still struggling to keep my debt at bay, but it seemed like maybe it would be manageable within a few years. I was able to get a loan for a new car which was very exciting. Things were looking up ever so slightly.
Then in July of 2019, I felt sharp pains in my abdomen and my stomach looked like it had a balloon inside of it. This event would send me on a diagnosis tour to several doctors, specialists, and surgeons. I was living in constant pain and no one could help me or tell me what was wrong. I started receiving bill after bill, on top of the medical debt I already accrued from therapy and other general health appointments. Thousands of dollars in medical debt and I still have no answer. The debt has sent me back into a state of near constant anxiety. It is an absolutely exhausting way to live, and working a second job would be nearly impossible. I am living paycheck to paycheck, never really making a dent into my debt… I am still living with constant pain (physical and mental) and a little financial help would be a lifesaver.
I’m sure there are people more deserving out there and I understand that I am blessed in many ways, but I still feel as though I cannot live like this anymore. It’s not easy to google “ask people for money” and come to a website to literally beg, but desperate times…
To anyone who reads this, I thank you whether or not you can donate.