I am in debt due to recent medical and psychological costs. This debt increases with each day that I cannot pay anything back. I have suffered from co-morbid mental health issues for over 13 years, which have made living a normal life impossible for me. I have been diagnosed with Anorexia Nervosa, adult Attention Deficit Hyperactive Disorder, complex trauma, Borderline Personality Disorder, substance abuse, anxiety and depression. I have been in and out of hospitals for these, as well as life threatening situations that I have been in. My health issues have meant that I have been unable to work and am currently unemployed. I am 28 years old, but I still live with my parents for reasons of cost and care. I am currently in debt over $800, attributed to hospital excess and psychologist ($170 per hour) and psychiatrist ($170 per 15 minutes) bills. I have been unable to do a grocery shop for myself this week as I have not had any money. My mother is also currently out of work due to recent hospitalizations with depression.
I often feel as though I have been dealt a very unfair life. As a teenager I was showing such promise of intellect and was building my vibrant personality. This began to derail after a couple of detrimental traumas. Since then I have experienced countless traumas, acts against my person. These have crushed my self esteem and my beliefs that the world can be an alright place. I have learnt that it can be dangerous and forever plotting against me. I hate living with fear.
The cost of having an illness in this country has proven astronomical and with little positive return. I am slowly but surely making progress this year as I believe I found the right psychologist and psychiatrist suited to work with me.
I am begging not only for money, but for someone or some few to show me that there are decent people out there who care enough to take the time to read this and hopefully be impacted in some way. I am begging that even if you do not or can not donate towards my bills, at least let this teach you that there are people out there who are really struggling and really suffering and really scared of this world. I am begging for those of you who can spare ANY loose change to do so. I would be irrevocably grateful. I am trying so hard to construct a somewhat decent life for myself, but money worries and issues make everything that much more difficult.