First of all I’d like to thank you for taking the time out of your day to read my donation request. This is the first (and hopefully last) request I’ve ever made. I’ve been in a rough situation for about a year now, and this is a last resort for me. I don’t think anyone aspires to be asking for spare change online, but I’m swallowing my pride and would like to explain how I got here.
In short: I’ve suffered with anxiety for roughly 4 years now. Last year, I fell into depression on top of that. I’m normally a very outgoing, bubbly, and friendly person – but behind closed doors I began having very dark thoughts and the combined mental illnesses began completely taking control over my daily life. My social anxiety prevented me from making an appointment at the doctors until earlier this year when it got too much to handle. I was diagnosed, as suspected, with anxiety and depression, and prescribed antidepressants and betablockers to treat it.
Friends who had gone through depression warned me that antidepressants can make you worse before better, but after about 3 days of being on the medication I began feeling like myself again. I hadn’t felt so happy, healthy, and alive in years.
Then my monthly prescription ran out.
Why don’t you pay for it with your wages?
Truth is – I’d love to, but I’m currently unemployed. I have experience working with children, working behind bars, and as a singer, but in the current climate I’m really struggling to get any job offers. I locked down a job a few months ago, hence why I could afford the medication in the first place, but had to leave due to colleagues mocking my mental health and the disabilities of customers, as well as the occasional racist comments.
Isn’t there a government program to help with that? Can’t you claim benefits?
I’ve applied countless times for Jobseeker’s Allowance (or Universal Credit as it’s now called), but am not eligible because I left the country for 3 months last year to do volunteer work in rural Nigeria.
I’d be so grateful for any donations. My lack of medication is making it more difficult for me to find a job, resulting in a vicious circle. You have my word that once I’m up and running again, I’ll pay it forward and help out someone else in need.