First of all, I have to say that English is not my main language, so it will be hard for me to explain the whole situation. Also, it will be a long story, so I’m thankful to everyone in advance who reads this and will help at least with advice.
I’m 23 now and I have a complex form of partial edentulism. This is a dental health related disease, as a result of which I have already lost more than five natural teeth and more over I already have no one healthy teeth and it keeps getting worse very fast. It started when I was only 15, my teeth were growing uneven, wrong (I don’t know how to call it correct). Unfortunately, I and my family never had the means and opportunity to cure it in a time. For now, my mouth looks so terrible that it has become my biggest complex, the fact that someone can notice it is my greatest fear and the cause of all suffering, it is terribly painful, constantly, it can’t be explained with words how terrible the mouth pain is.
When it started I was under 18, then I had the opportunity to be treated at the expense of the state (I’m resident of Latvia, that’s the small country in Baltic states). Due to the fact that my teeth don’t grow as they should they are destroying each other faster than I can treat it. All this time, I could not earn enough money to recover completely. Partly, because it also prevented me from living fully, working and enjoying life.
The last two months I worked hard and tried to treat what I have. That’s my main goal in life for now, I really can’t live fully because of that, it’s like a kind of disability. The whole process of treatment began with extraction of all dead teeth. I didn’t know before, but it’s so painful and hard when wounds heal up that after a month of suffering it completely broke me. I got many side effects due to severe persistent pain, such as fainting, nervous tick, asthma and panic attacks, excessive stress, irritability, insomnia, eating problems (I’m always hungry just because I can’t eat up enough because of pain).
So far, I turned into a mentally unstable person. However, I hope that I’ll become the same, adequate as before when I’ll recover. All of March I’m on sick leave, despite the fact that I need to work and do my things. Unfortunately, at the moment I can say for sure that I really need psychological and material help.
I’m not physically weak, but there were days when I couldn’t even get out of bed, so bad my condition was. And evaluating myself from the outside, I can say that my condition is so bad now that I have to stay at home, especially since now there’s also worldwide quarantine. Also because of this situation about the virus my dentist canceled all the visits in a halfway and I got flux and pus with my last extracted teeth. That was an incredible pain which also drove me mad. It looks like I’m dramatizing a lot, but no, the doctor who helped me said that because of this I could die at all. It was really hard to find someone who could help me in the midst of a pandemic, therefore my flux went extremely bad.
Eventually, I’m completely crumbled and praying for help. I already don’t have any money even for food, I got huge debts around five thousands already and I need approximately ten more to finish the treatment and I really don’t know where to get it now. I have nothing to pay for my apartment, bills and etc. I have no acquaintances who could help me, in general I’m completely alone in this situation. Plus to everything, I lost my job due to the pandemic and my powerlessness at the moment.
Now, when I and all of us have to sit at home and have a lot of free time, I began to study programming, music and many more interesting things as much as I have the forces to do while I recover and I really enjoy it. I didn’t even expect before that I like music so much, because I constantly worked and had no opportunity to do something else. But the realization that it takes much more time to start earn at least something scares me. Every day everybody I owe money to is demanded of me, I simply have no time left. Unfortunately, I really need money specifically to solve all my problems. I have a dream to contact a large company dealing with dentistry Straumann to get good, high-quality dental implants, but their treatment costs a lot of money.
The only thing I can offer you in return for your help at the moment is communication, maybe some kind of interaction, to be honest I don’t even know, but to everyone who will help me I promise to return everything if I manage to get out of this difficult situation and achieve any success. Now in my plans are to learn how to program, write music, recover and not give up.