Life is not easy for people like me. I’ve always been good and honest with everyone, but it seems like they are hardly going through a lifetime. I got a job. I worked and I did my best to do the best I could for the success of the company, but no one appreciated it. I’ve absorbed so much energy and knowledge in vain, and I think I was old enough before the time in that company.
And after all, I was fired in my 47th year. And then there are even bigger problems. I do not have money for basic things. And of course I’m falling into depression and every day I fight for survival and so here are 4 years. Family problems in society begin. My friends leave me and I am alone to fight the windmills. During that period, my brother dies, and I fall into depression more and more, because I felt as if a part of me disappeared.
I’m trying to get some money, but I’m not young now, and it’s hard to find a job. I did some temporary jobs, but it’s a little profit. I live with my parents who are old and sick and I suffer because I can not help them and we all live hard.
And the worst thing is that our home is endangered because I have a debt to a bank of about 9,000 $ and a court process is nearing completion and I can not pay that debt. While I worked regularly, I paid that loan, but when I was fired I could not pay it anymore. Because of this debt I am in a very difficult psychic state and I think of various things.
In my life I was fat and wanted to help others, but my life played with me, so now I need help and it’s very difficult for me to seek help, but I have no other way out. Good people help how much you can and God keeps you.