This is not normal for me to ask but here it goes. Im trying to avoid Foreclosure. My mortgage company gave me 3 months to come up with the back payment of $6,973 and I have nothing as of right now. When it rains it pours. I don’t own much but this is my first house I bought, it’s affordable, in a safe neighborhood and after I was fired from my job. I cashed in my 401K to pay the mortgage and utilities. I figured I will get a job quick because I always do. A little back story is that I have mental health issues, sought help for decades with little improvement. Last year I was paralyzed from the depression. I feel so awkward in my skin, I was sick of pretending to be ok with life when inside I was screaming. I didn’t care if I lived let alone get the FMLA paperwork in on time. With that, I was fired from a great job that was work from home. I was sick of taking medicine that did nothing except give me awful side effects. I tried to end it all but was unsuccessful, again. I guess I’m meant to be here and I hope to find my way. A friend suggested I take some tests for autism and to my surprise, I scored above average on all of them which lead me to seek a formal diagnosis. I was certain I wasn’t but that 14 page report summarized 47 years of iner turmoil that I’m relieved to know but also know I can’t go back pretending to be someone I am not. Women are masters at masking, even when there is no autistic diagnosis. Women were said to not have autism until the last decade. I could always get a job because I was to pretend to be someone perfect. I knew all the right things to say, never asked for what I needed and this put me in a vicious cycle of getting a job and then getting fired for my lack of communication skills. I graduated with honors in high school, graduated college, I even scored high on an IQ test when I was 6 and participated in a study for NASA. I was driven and unstoppable until I couldn’t pretend anymore. I could no longer mask who I was which isn’t a bad thing but people don’t care to take the time to understand others who are different. I am different, always was and when I was in my 20’s and 30’s, I was gorgeous if I may say so myself. My looks kind of hid that I have a hard time communicating with others. I also went deaf in my right ear overnight without any medical reason. Super strange but like most things in life, I deal. I have been unemployed for 1 year and 1 month. I have been on 5 interviews and nothing. I’m trying to accept being autistic and finally be my authentic self but I don’t think employers are willing to hire an autistic female. I do put I have a “disability” on applications because I also have ADHD and find people who pop gum, chew loudly, sing, hum, basically make any noise unnecessary for the job intolerable and had to request my desk be moved in the past. In 12/2022 I bought a house that’s affordable. I have 2 sick fur babes and a truck that needs more work then I can afford. I can’t afford food for myself and do DoorDash when my father lets me borrow his car. My utilities are behind and am working with my mortgage company but I still owe $6,972 and that is expected by June. I could do a short sell or sell to someone to assume the mortgage and then be homeless and without a car. I’ve paid into the system since I was 16 and I’m currently 47. I was denied food assistance, heck any assistance because I don’t have kids nor do I believe I’m incapable of working. When I was working steady I gave a lot to “friends”, neighbors, strangers because I believe in paying it forward and I have received some help from close friends but I’m beyond struggling to survive. I pray, apply to numerous jobs a day, have talked to local shops about a job but nothing so far. I was able to take my cat to the vet and I believe he is doing better but that was my gas and phone bill. I could keep going and will spare anyone who made it this far anymore details. I know this is far fetched but desperate times calls for desperate measures and if I can keep the one thing of value to my name, my house, i could afford to keep up with the mortgage because a friend wants to move in. I got this house right before the mortgage rates went up and have put work into it before I lost my job if 7 years a year ago. If anyone is willing to help, the money would go towards keeping this house where my 2 loyal fur babes can live out their lives in peace and I will have my first home still. It’s nothing fancy. Built in 1950 If I have to sell, I dont know where I would find a place and being homeless with a cat and dog will be so difficult. I’m seeking help to learn skills to help me better understand this autistic diagnosis but I can’t pretend to be someone I am not anymore. I attempted suicide twice and both times I was told I was lucky to be alive. Weird thing to say to someone who tried to end their life but I’m not giving up this time. My goal is $7,000 and will sell everything in this house to put towards it. I don’t have much of value because my ex husband pawned everything before I divorced him. Please know im not sitting around looking for a free handout. Im seriously in need since I don’t have children, I am not eligible for government assistance despite paying into the system for 30+ years. I do believe if I was diagnosed earlier with autism I wouldn’t be unemployed, depressed and unable to find a job because I would have learned skills to cope. Thank you for your time and consideration to help me keep my home. I promise I will pay it forward once I’m on my feet. Cash app $LolaNyxJack, Venmo @KrisLolaNyx, PayPal @KristenHearsey https://paypal.me/KristenHearsey?country.x=US&locale.x=en_US