My name is Amanda and I am desperate for a break from life. I am struggling to catch up on my bills and my mortgage payments. Everything fell behind when my mental health took a turn for the worst and my depression/anxiety got the best of me this spring. I have been fighting like hell to get better. I go to every doctor appointment, every therapy appointment, go to work every single day and try to be the best mom and wife I can possible be to my family but I am so stressed out. Some days it’s hard to breath knowing that I have put this burden upon myself all because I am mentally ill.
I have struggled with my mental health since I was a teenager and I have seen a ton of doctors, been hospitalized, had lots of medications and finally after 25 years have finally been correctly diagnosed within this last month. So, while I am still struggling I am trying. I am trying my damnedest and I do it all for my kids.
I have the greatest kids a person could ask for. I have a 13 year old daughter who is absolutely in full teenage mode and can be an absolute brat and yet I know she is going to be the best adult and I can’t wait to keep watching her grow up. She has the absolute biggest heart and the weirdest, funniest personality. Then, I have a 7 year old boy who I think his whole life goal is to test me and see how fast I can catch him getting ready to do something crazy with his friends, like building a fort in the back of my pick up truck. :)
The thing is if I wasn’t desperate I would never have found a website like this. I never ask anyone for anything. I am a giver. I don’t ask anything in return. I work hard at a job I love but don’t make a ton of money. I really am trying my hardest and if I can just get back on track I know I will be okay. If I can just get back to the start line everything will work out. I know I won’t be able to pay back who ever helps me BUT I will guarantee I will pay it forward in every way possible.