I just can’t put this into any words but I’ll try my best to explain this devastating situation. My grandmother called my mother about his passing, saying he wouldn’t wake up, and ever since that night, I still don’t understand any of this or why it even happened in the first place.
My grandfather has always been a great role model even to my siblings up until this point and I just wish that I appreciated him way more than I did while he was alive.
Yes, I loved my grandfather and treated him like my parents but I think I just took him for granted and for so long up until his passing, and this left me with so much regret. My siblings are mourning with me for hours on end everyday, and while wondering why? Why must it be him? Why is it our grandfather and not someone else’s?
Every time he came over I couldn’t help but smile whenever I saw his face. He filled my family up with so much happiness and I just couldn’t imagine what life would be like without him on my side making my sides hurt with laughter. I’ll never even forget his hugs, and every single one he gave me was so tight. And of course there was also a lot of love in each one too. And they were so tight and long to where it almost seemed like he knew he wasn’t gonna visit us again, and ever since that one call I haven’t been the same. No one should experience their loved one’s going away before their very own eyes, not even your worst enemies.
Trying to cope with this situation isn’t even close to being easy. I miss school a bunch of times, I stay up all night while stress eating and on top of that I just can’t find a reason to live anymore without my grandfather. I’m doing my absolute hardest while speaking out to my friends and family about my depression. And while I’m forever grateful to have so many amazing people on my side for my mental health and well-being, I can never thank them enough for their kindness and support.
It’s hard, and I know he’s in heaven, which is a better place for him to be in. I still think it would be best for him to stay on earth with his family, and just for one last time before he goes back to the heavenly gates with the lord.
But while this is all happening, my mother and father are finding it hard to pay for my grandfather’s funeral. They came up short with the money during all of these covid shenanigans and now we need anyone’s help at the moment, and my grandmother is in the same situation. They are trying their absolute best to gain but it’s almost impossible to get a job when the pay won’t cover an angel’s funeral in time. $3,000 is all we ask for, and we totally understand if you don’t wanna donate, because we can’t force you, but it would be very, very helpful if you did. Thank you guys, and I hope the rest of your lovely lives are peaceful and free from sorrow.