This Is going to be a rather raw fucked up cold hearted unfiltered full of hate, rage and pain coming from inside of me that most of you hopefully have never seen it but I am angered and heartbroken, relieved and saddened all at the same time so either put on a seatbelt and grab some popcorn or move the fuck on because it’s going to be raw and put right out there.
About 60 minutes ago I received a text from my brother that my nephew Trenton Harris was found shot to death on a bench in Seattle four days ago; we were just notified because they needed fingerprints notify his mother Jennifer Pavan Harris Gutierrez.
Trenton was the eldest son of Jennifer and the recently deceased Kenny Harris. Trenton never stood a chance. When he died and I don’t know the circumstances surrounding his death but he had been involved for I don’t know how long the selling of fentanyl. Ultimately I blame not just the shooter, not just Trenton but my sister (his grandmother) Kathy Rebuck, his mother, Jennifer, and my sort of former half nephew Jennifers half cousin Kyle Pavan. Hell we could also blame the California foster care system from the 1960s and 1970s.
Kathy was married to Richard Pavan the father of seven children including Jennifer, Trenton’s mother and Rick Pavan the father of Kyle Pavan.
Richards five children including Rick from his previous wife who had been involved in the California foster care system and I am not sure how many of them may have been molested but I know Rick Pavan,when I was maybe 11 or 12 and he was still in high school molested me and possibly one of my other sisters when he had gone to live with my sister Kathy and Richard in 1974 Around the same time that my father was murdered and my sister Ruth and I had to go stay with Kathy and Richard and the seven children until my mom could get her shit together and come back from Washington.
Although Jennifer was Richard‘s biological child and my other niece from my sister Kathy, Charlotte was not , Richard always favored Charlotte over Jennifer and basically ignored her. During that time Richard was abusive especially to George paven his youngest boy who had it so bad in foster care that he still wet the bed at eight years old and I remember Richard making him sit in scalding bathwater as punishment and Kathy did nothing about it.
Kathy and Richard divorced and she married Robert Rebuck. Because of the abuse and neglect and the drug use that was going on in my mothers house in 1975 1976 when I was in junior high by my mother‘s boyfriend Jack Scott who raped me at age of 12 and my mother choosing him when I tried to commit suicide over it and she told me that she was not gonna make him move out I had to go live with Kathy and Bob. This is already after my mother, who people don’t understand why I don’t respect, did nothing about the sexual abuse she was made aware of committed by my grandfather Cecil Stafford and my father David Stafford. Cecil was a schoolteacher who molested God knows how many people and all the girls in my family. Back then things like that was just families dirty little secrets that people didn’t talk about . Cecil molested Kathy at 12 Ruth was maybe fifth grade. I was in second grade. My father had molested me when I was 10 and my mother was told about it and she did nothing…. she did nothing with my father molested and prostituted out one of my sisters.
When I lived with Kathy for three years I was told I would never amount to anything if I wasn’t skinny. I was constantly berated and humiliated in front of my friends and her and Bob’s friends for not being skinny despite being an honor student. I stayed there through the verbal and mental abuse until I was 16 and couldn’t take it anymore.
Charlotte, I don’t know what all happened with her ( Kathy’s oldest child) but she was an alcoholic that committed suicide in I believe 2003. Jennifer alleged that Robert Rebuck molested her and that’s why she hooked up with Kenny Harris when Jennifer was still in high school and got pregnant, married Kenny and moved out.
After Jennifer and Kenny who is also the father of Jennifer split up Jennifer had an affair with her half cousin Kyle Pavan who repeatedly raped both McKenzie and Trenton when they were adolescents. Jennifer not only did nothing about it but took Kyle Pavan’s side over her own children’s when it went to trial and Kyle was acquitted. I was sickened by reading police reports of the abuse.
After that time and since that time at various times Trenton and McKenzie and Jennifer‘s youngest son Sam stayed with my sister Kathy both in Elwood and after she moved to Washington state. The three years I lived with Kathy was the worst of my life mentally,even worse than the sexual abuse I had endured at the hands of my father, grandfather and my father‘s friend Ralph.
Trenton, McKenzie and Sam were then involved in drugs, heavy drugs and manipulated and ENABLED by my sister Kathy Rebuck. She did nothing to save those children. Trenton stayed with me briefly until he was arrested and went to prison in 2009 and was in and out of prison after that.
I’ve had nothing to do with my sister Kathy Rebuck since 2013 when she inferred to the police department and the fire department that I had arsoned my own home when it was an electrical fire as investigated by both the fire marshal and the insurance companies. Everything Kathy has touched has wilted and died or poisoned.
Trenton was found shot to death
I blame Kathy and Jennifer and Kyle for Trenton‘s death as he never stood a fucking chance.