On August 12th of this year, I received a phone call from my sister saying my nephew wasn’t breathing and to meet her at the hospital closest to our house. I immediately left and when I arrived I had been told he was in the care of his father and he called the paramedics after calling my sister because my nephew wasn’t breathing and was blue. 2 days later he died of 2 skull fractures and lack of oxygen to his brain. We then found out that his dad not only beat him that night but axed him into the coffee table because he couldn’t get him to stop crying. Not only did he spank him and hit him, he squeezed him and shook him and smashed him into a table but he also left him on the floor while he googled what he had done for over and hour and a half before actually calling it in. Oh and my 2 year old nephew was also in the room and knows only that “Daddy baby boom ambulance” It was horrifying and I can’t even Express what it was like to see a casket that’s a foot long. Now we have thousands of dollars to pay to bury him.
Not only did that happen but this summer I left my daughters dad for him hitting me and abusing me physically and mentally. I couldn’t allow it after what had happened and my 10 month will not be subjected to that type of behavior. Needless to say he’s no longer helping me with anything including diapers wipes etc. The best part is he’s now living with my sister and my family is not an option for help. I am now facing eviction, my utilities are behind my truck is going to be taken if I can’t pay it this month and I’m trying to work but two jobs isn’t cutting it and I don’t have anyone to babysit for me on a consistent basis so I’m falling behind quickly.
I truly have lost so much this summer, I am trying so hard and getting knocked back every step I take. My story is sad and my life is sad. I’m struggling to keep up as it is with my mental stability as an issue already I am trying to provide structure for my daughter niece and nephew but can’t get away from the effects that drugs and alcohol have trashed my family.
I’m sober, I don’t even drink alcohol, I’m 27 with a 10 month old and am a single mom. I’m working towards school or a third job but will lose valuable time with my little girl if I commit to those things and all I want is to show this little girl a decent life without chaos and pain every minute of everyday.
I need your help and can’t Express how frustrated I’m getting not moving forward when I do so much every day.
I want to change the pattern my parents have set in play for us as their children, and show my youngest family members they can depend on me and if they ever need a home or meal I am here. However if I lose my home I won’t be able to do that for them and they need it. Please help me start something new for a dysfunctional family and help me provide a better place for 3 children who deserve a better life.