Hello… to whoever is reading this.
I’ve spent the past few days applying for jobs and making phone calls and selling my belongings on the internet to try to catch up and it feels hopeless… so I’ve found this website as a bit of a last resort. A “Hail Mary” if you will…
My name is McKenzi and I worked in restaurants my whole life after being told by my family that I couldn’t amount to anything more than that. This year, I found a passion in music and realized I regretfully worked my youth away and never allowed myself to experience life outside of work. I quit my restaurant job and became a DJ, built my own label called Seductive Abduction and started traveling with production companies building stages for music festivals around the country. My heart has never been fuller and I’ve never known true happiness until I started working with music. I’ve been very blessed this year except recently, my past two gigs took a massive pay cut under a different management and now I am two months behind rent with a red negative in my bank account… I live in a small town so my back-up of DJing for pay does not support me financially at $50 a week…. I now FULLY comprehend the term “starving artist”. it’s honestly embarrassing for me to have tried to follow my dreams but ended up in debt and although my spirit is happy, my mind is plagued with anxiety about my credit going under for a corrective eye surgery in collections and impending eviction because I haven’t been able to pay rent. I’m humiliated to ask for help; my parents are not capable of helping me; my father is an alcoholic and a drug addict who lives on the street and I can’t help him if I can’t help myself. And I certainly don’t want to end up like him if I can’t get my life together. I have jobs lined up in a couple of weeks to work at the local YMCA but I’m afraid by the time I get paid… I might have run out of time. My landlord says he is renovating my apartment starting September 24 and that I must leave. I know the real reason is because I’m behind on the rent… anyway… I know that I’m rambling but I don’t know what else to say; I’ve never asked for help before. Like I said, this is a bit of a last resort. It would be a blessing if this works but I understand if it doesn’t. If this is a real opportunity that you offer people, then thank you for your acts of kindness.