This is heartbreaking to write, as I have to openly admit my failings and literally beg for people to help me put things right.
I am about to lose everything and my biggest concern is my children. They may lose their home. I have been told that I must leave the house that I’m renting, which doesn’t sound like a big deal but it really is. I have CCJs against my name and can’t secure a tenancy without paying six months rent upfront or having a guarantor. Unfortunately I don’t really have family to turn to. I’ve lost both my parents and have no other siblings I could ask. As much as I try to sort things out I’m getting no where. Please don’t think I haven’t tried other options – I’ve sold everything I can on eBay, taken on extra work, everything I can think of, but nothing has been enough.
There is no doubt that my money problems were self inflicted, but at the time I got the debt I was young and didn’t really get how big an impact this could all have on my future life. So now I am having to ask for help. My mental health is being seriously affected and I have nearly lost my job this past year because of the complete breakdown I’ve been having. Fortunately I sought help and came clean with my employer and I’m hoping that things will begin to improve, even if it doesn’t feel that way now.
I need money to be able to secure a tenancy near to my current house. My son is about to go in to his final year at high school and I worry that if I am forced to go to a hostel or similar, because I can’t get a property, that it will have a big impact on his life. He needs these exams for his future. I don’t think I will ever forgive myself if my failings cause an adverse effect on his life. My other son should be applying for high school this year. Again if I have to move out of the area he will have to go to a different high school and lose all his friends he’s spent years trying to make. Both of my boys have social and communication difficulties, also known as high functioning autism. They find it very difficult adapting to change and making new friends. The result of having to move and leave people they know could have a serious impact on their wellbeing and mental health.
I realise how bad it is to have to ask for help and I’m sure many will read and think I’m not deserving of help. I’m prepared for that. But if you do think that you could help by making a donation of some sort then I would be forever grateful and humbled by your support.