3 years ago, I gave birth alone. The hospital asked me to leave 18 hours later and I had no where to go. So they dropped me off at a shelter. I stayed there for 3 months until I found a job at a gas station. I was making 8 dollars an hour. I couldn’t afford an apartment so I lived in a motel with my stepfather, who was schizophrenic but had to watch my daughter anyway. I was working so I did not qualify for “govt assistance”. I would steal paper towels from my gas station bathroom to make diapers because I couldn’t afford them but I kept working anyway. I managed to save up for a 1997 Infiniti the following year. At which point a female friend from college said I could be her roommate.
Things seemed to be getting better! When my daughter was 18 months, we were all evicted because my “friend” never paid her share of the rent. I kept up with 1600 dollars a month by myself with two jobs for as long as I could. My daughter, father and I all ended up living in the car for 8 months. So that I could save up again, enough for a deposit on an apartment and pay off the debt from the last. My daughter ate her second birthday, cupcake, in the backseat.
I finally got a place and more recently a brand new job making a dollar more. Which is a really big deal. I put in a 2 week notice to my previous employer. All seemed well, until they said they were having payroll issues. A pay period went by, and then two. I used all my turns at the food bank and what savings I had. Really Im scared to death to be homeless again, words cannot express. I am so scared. Im so scared I’ll lose my daughter or worse. I don’t know what to do with my Dad because everyone is afraid of him. I have no family and no friends. I don’t “qualify” for help because I make too much and I don’t “qualify” for loans because I make too little. Its so frustrating.
This post is insanely hard to write right now.
Im currently waiting on my first check from my new job at a hospital. They do offer advances but I haven’t finished the 90 day probation. I am currently dealing with the Labor Bureau on trying to find a lawyer to help me get the pay that I’m owed. Missing two entire paychecks when you live paycheck to paycheck is surreal. To get back on track with rent I need $2,467 dollars like a week ago. I just keep trying to hold my landlord off, its been enough time for her to file a legal eviction. But she’s really trying to work with me and I appreciate her so much.
If anyone can help I’d be so extremely grateful, I made a “cashapp”
Cashapp is $Leawyn
I don’t know if anyone will ever see this, but if you do and you make it through the whole thing. Thank you just for that.