I will start by telling you my name. My name is Erica Shephard. I am a 41 year old mother of 5. My children are Alexis 22, Alexander 15, Asia 13, Eric 8 and he will be 9 on tomorrow, and the life of the party Erian 6. I am a bipolar, depressed mother of 5, that is unstable and always looking to help others when I can’t even help myself. I have numerous jobs and I always seem to find the things that I don’t like about them. I always go over and beyond and always help anyone in need whether it’s my last or not. I am a giver. I have offered my home to many people that have less than I do and I and always trying to see the best in people who don’t see it in themselves. I have always struggled financially because of me giving money away to help others. My mother told me one time it was because I don’t feel like I deserve anything and sometimes I believe that is the truth. I want to give my children a better life they deserve so much but I always fall short. I have bad credit and mental issues, no insurance but I have children and myself that are very creative and talented. My oldest loves crocheting and is able to make a lot of things. That’s her passion. My son Alexander I recently found out at 15 he reads on a 4th grade level but yet the schools didn’t realize it and I always thought he was just angry, but he can’t read and the schools passed him on to the 8th grade in which he is still behind, bit he can fix anything and he loves creating beats to make music. My daughter Asia is creative, smart and she is always drawing and a recluse. She loves anime and always has a smart comeback to whatever someone says to her. Eric is my baby boy and he is full of energy and athletic as they come. He can throw a baseball, football, shoot basketball, and run his heart out. He is lovable and the one who gets along with everyone. Erian is the spunky, tomboy who tries to do everything Eric does and who is eric,’s keeper. Whenever her birthday comes around she always gets toys for her and Eric. If she goes to the store she always gets something for Eric. They all have great qualities and I have always tried drilling in them to not be bullies, to always help their elders and to always be fair and see the best in people. I have had a hard life. I know everyone has, I still always see the best in people. I have been molested, raped, beaten, abused, prostituted and I still always try to see the best in people. I have helped people from all walks of life. I worked in a gas station in a bad neighborhood and there was a young girl sitting outside it was 2 in the morning. She was high and men were trying to get her in the car and take her off somewhere. I walked outside and I’m 5’3, 180 and a woman but I still went outside to this little frail white girl sitting outside high, and 3 black black guys in a car where trying to get her in the car I yelled at them and I told the girl who was no more than 20 to sit right there she better not move and that I was closing the store to take her home. I didn’t know her from the man on the moon , but the thought of someone’s daughter sitting out there like that I put her in my car and drove her home. Another time a man was jumping on his girlfriend and all these people were outside watching. I had a customer tell me not to go outside because I had children, but me being me I had to intervene. By the time I got out there the man had jumped in his car and was trying to run his girlfriend over and I jumped in front of her and he stopped and I begged and pleaded with him to not hurt her. I have always put myself in harm’s way to protect people. It’s my job to help. I have always wanted to start a place where people aren’t judged and they can come freely and get help. I know I am going on and on but I do need assistance. I am at the point where I will be homeless and my children and I have stayed in hotels before many times and I just don’t want them to go through that anymore. I can’t get financial assistance because my credit score is bad. I just need help. I need mental health and just enough to get me on my feet. I am not on drugs, nor do I drink. Sometimes I wish I had those issues instead of my mental health because I would probably be able to control those issues. I just want to find peace and help my children and others as well. Mental health is a disease that is not really addressed like people say it is. It’s frowned upon in the black community but I know that I need help and I don’t have the insurance or means to get good care. That’s enough of that
I would like someone to help me,but I don’t want anything just given to me I would like to work for it or give something in return. I like writing, I always write poems, books, songs, and I am creative. I wanted to start a business that would be therapeutic to people called custom creations and scented Dreams. People would come in and make candles, crochet and jewelry and it would help to relieve stress and it would be something they can learn as to make them feel like they can accomplish something. I want to start a play center for youth. Not based on ethnicity, financial, or religion just a place where children can just unite and deal with the many issues that they have coming up in this world. I want to help people who are suicidal. I want to help those that think know one hears them. I want to do so much to help. I just need a way to start. I have a million ideas. Like an the lastest vehicles a notification that lets you know you left a child or animal in the car. For Amber alerts a notification that pops up on all the digital dashboard when your driving if you don’t have access to your phone. I have a thousand ideas in my mind but no way to fulfill them. So I am not asking for something for nothing. I want to contribute to the world. I have this idea for a webpage for children to have a big sister or big brother they can reach out to and be anonymous. They can let someone know what’s going on with them and the parents can sign the children up and if there is something that is going on the proper authorities will be notified without jeopardizing the child. That can be for children that are thinking about suicide or have been raped, or bullied. There are so many ways I can help others I just need to get on the right path and assistance for my issues to help others. I know I have said a lot and thank you for taking the time to read my email and if nothing else even if you can’t help me please at least use some of my ideas. I think all of them are worth looking into.