I’ll try to keep this simple. Feel free to skip to the last paragraph. So I mainly grew up with just my sister and father. My moms story is quite extensive. She was kicked out, and my sister eventually was too. I however was sent to a program called Job Corps where I met a ton of great people. I had only been into music.. nothing else. My father has had a band for quite a while so that explains why I loved to create.
So do job corps really helped me socially. Not only that, a lot of people like what I create. I recently got into producing my own music as well. However I doubted my talents until I posted songs online just for myself. All of a sudden I noticed I had been shouted out by artists I look up to (they’re not huge… yet) and had reached 35k plays in two days!! Got a blog post on my music, and a cool small following.
Ive always wanted to find a career I can really succeed in and sort of try to bring my family back together. Not like as far as marriage goes. Just actually being able to spend time together and live life how we’ve always dreamt. Or how I always dreamt..
As years went went on I gradually began to lose control due to depression, insomnia, anxiety. Lost my job, got evicted from my apartment, and went from $7k in savings to -$1k in debt, lost funding for therapy, and had a visit to the ER from a severe panic attack… all on my birthday. Ended up moving into a home with some chill people. But a certain couple want me out.
So in turn, I’ve been doing research on how to be homeless… and how to get out of it. See, I’ve worked with my father since I was 9. We did landscaping up until I was sent to job corps. But I also had to sell things to help my dad not worry about bills… without knowing haha. I was 9yrs old selling candy.. and other stuff… while hiding the money in his dirty laundry to act like he forgot it. I’d also go pay bills he was behind on and act like maybe some church friends helped out. Just things to keep the lights and water on. So I guess I grew up way too fast. But I always felt bad.
So currently on the verge of being homeless isn’t scary to me. I’ve experienced enough in life that this would just be a bump in the road. It’s just tiring after a while when you’re working your butt off to just be discouraged and question what you’re even doing this for. My goal is just to make a living off what I love to do. Then invest for future generations that could eventually grow into something helpful for people like me. People who don’t want to depend on others and actually work!
I do DoorDash just to get food and some money towards rent. But the environment has grew sour. My family depended on me and now that I’m not in a good place I feel worthless. So much to the point I don’t talk to anyone anymore. I just lock myself away making music all day or working. I don’t sleep much so I have nothing but time. But it becomes dangerously exhausting.
Any and all help would not be taken for granted. And it’d be used to establish something and escape the environment that’s meant for me to adapt to and become another statistic. What I need is literally a place to call my own. Like an studio apartment where I can be free of negative energy while getting on my feet. I’m not looking for $100,000. I do have a goal of like $5-$10k to allow me to get back into my investments and produce like I used to. My goal is to use the free time to go to school, get training for a well paid field, and test the waters to see if I can make the music thing really happen.
Honestly always feel like crying when I’m being held back from working. I finally worked my butt of to pay off tickets, bank debts, and get my car situated to keep doing DoorDash deliveries since I’m a preferred driver! So just know your donation isn’t for personal gain. I’m trying to prove to the world I can be something. I want to create jobs for people. I want to give back. I want to do everything I see people fortunate enough to do. I want to be able to cover medical costs to better my health. Cover medical bills for family. I just want to.. be.. something in this short amount of time we have and actually leave something for the future.
If if you read this all, I appreciate you a ton. I know my topics are all over the place. https://www.paypal.me/kurtiiiss