I’ll get right to the point. I am 57 wanting to start my life over again. With not much honesty. After two long relationships with men who I see now held me back. The last one was 8 years. I wanted to make his life better. I took care of his handicap son. Then him as well when he started having health issues. While I worked. I sacrificed moving to another state to be with my family to be with him. I found, filled and maintained the house we live in. His father put down the deposit and he makes the mortgage payment. I pay my own bills and pay some utilities. When I say I’ve taken care of everything and every need I am not exaggerating at all. We’ve been “engaged” for 8 years. 8 years of me honestly taking care of his every need and he says this house is his. I didn’t “contribute”. Everyone came before me. I honestly and truly like to make others lives better. I am a strong lover. If I love you I will do whatever I can to make things easier and better for you. I blame myself. I have no hard feelings. I just want to focus on myself. I want to start over. I had 4 children young and a narcissistic, financially controlling husband for 27 years before my current relationship. I let men have too much control over my life. I gave too much. I lost myself. I still don’t know what I want to be when I grow up. I want my kids to be proud of me. I want to show them I am strong and independent. I just need a help getting out of my situation to start over. I want to learn finance. How to invest, take courses. I want to pay off my bills and get a little place for just me. I want to learn how to make money make money . I want to start my own businesses. I have so many ideas. I worked hard my whole life. Nothing was ever handed to me. My mother was 15 when she had my brother and exactly one year later 16 when she had me. We were shuffled around to different foster homes our whole life. Things weren’t easy. I never had and lost money. Never have been type of addict. I turned out pretty good considering. Was a good, caring mother, wife and am an even better grandmother. I learned to be strong and responsible . I also learned to be a caretaker. Which is a double edge sword. Hence why I’ve taken care of the men who don’t care enough for me. I want to be able to leave something I earned for my kids. I want freedom from the weight of someone who doesn’t deserve me. I want to better myself. Honestly, why not me? I will do the right thing. You can know you invested in a good, kind, giving, soul who believes in paying it forward.