These are the first words you’re interpreting to grasp an idea of how I am. I’m aware of the environment my actions have led me too. Or vice versa; what I have chosen to enact. But that’s my dilemma. My only child, son of 3 years has been out of my reach for over a year now. And as time has played its course, regardless of efforts put forth to figuring out a way, my personal experiences have left me with added weight. And the magnitude of my lack in being able to influence him, in any positive way isn’t happening. Longer story shortened; Broken relationship that ended a family. Emotions were heightened, Mother left with son, alcohol slipped into a pattern of norms, lacerated tendons and an artery, which led to recovery time and no work. Lost my home, priorities lost the support needed to create a new home. Decided to give in to the curious ideas and experiences of drugs. Self experimentation and discovery became known and I became more conscious of the end result if I continued. I realized my stubbornness could have led me to become obsolete. And in my moments of near-death, my image of my son and foreshadowing his life with yet another generation of no father is what saves me. I’m in a much better state-of-mind in the present moment but, now my consequences are piling up. I know now that I need to move from Arkansas and set roots in Wisconsin where my son has lived with his mother and step father. I have a DUI on record that needs to be paid for as well as installing an interlock system. I have no vehicle, no job atm, recovering from drugs on a solo-self intentional discovery. If I get myself away from this place and back into my boys life, I know itd be all the motivation needed to creating what comes next. I don’t know how to ask for the specific amount needed, without wanting to explain in detail where everything will go to exactly. But, my debt has accumulated to $20 thousand. Fines, recent surgeries and medical bills, defaulted loan from dui car accident, no transportation to further job opportunities. I decided to look for help and came across this Avenue. Are you willing to help me out of this chapter and into my next? I may not be able to repay you in a timely manner but, I want it to be known I personally will not let your help get taken advantage of. I don’t want to be around this easy access anymore. My situation has grew to the point drugs are no longer needing to be bought. They’re just available if you know where to look, I’m not proud knowing this. I need distance from this. I want to be the guy I needed growing up for my boy Heath. I don’t want history repeating.