What have I become? Before I get into that, let me tell you who I was…
I was the girl with the pretty face, who got the attention she craved, but not the love she longed for.
I was just a pretty face. I was heart break and emptiness. I was fear. I was lost.
I am love,
I am pain.
I am a hopeless.
What is love without pain?
a hopeless romantic
This pretty much sums up my life. I love love. I fall in love hard.
I am bitter, angry, exhausted, confused, and lost.
I married wrong
I married young, separated young.
I have 5 beautiful kids who I have birthed via c-section. 🤯🙏
I have found myself in various forms of abusive relationships. My kids have seen me cry, scream, yell, plead, and question all that I valued. That isn’t fair to them. I vowed myself to change, so I am.
This was my last and final encounter with domestic violence, before I end up dead
I am suffering from an orbital fracture, bruising, and a concussion from being punched 3 times in the head. This left me with flashing light in my left eye, migraines, and fear of another unprovoked attack. My teeth were pushed in, but I have no dental insurance, so I have been in severe pain from that. Unfortunately, this happened around Christmas and I am just struggling to ensure my kids have a great one and a great year.
My dream is to end up doing something with law enforcement, and I can’t wait to go back to school! I am currently waiting to fix my windshield so I can make it to necessary appointments. He had punched my windshield so hard, he made it spider web crack badly.
I am sincerely just asking for help. Family and friend turned their backs on me when they were “threatened”, and I am at a loss for words, and for hope.
Anything helps and everything and everyone is greatly appreciated. Thank you for reading my story. I’m sorry if it isn’t too clear, I am still suffering from migraines and I feel foggy.