Hello, I graduated from college a year ago and managed to get a job quickly after graduation. I was super excited about the job because it was basically a dream job of mine, working as an engineer a start up designing a product that could be used to help people. Quickly though it turned into a job from hell. I went into the job thinking that I would have support and time to learn things as I went along but instead I was given all of the responsibilities of a senior position with no guidance or person to bounce ideas off of. From day one, a fellow employee decided that I was going to be their favorite person to criticize and yell at to the point when I would take a break to cry in the bathroom. I was not allowed to bring up questions or ask for clarification on what they wanted me to do, just do what ever they said even if it was against what my manager had told me to do. Even after talking to my manager and the CEO about the problems to come up with solutions to getting along with the employee, nothing really ended up changing. In the end that employee ended up being someone who got to choose if I would remain at the company. I had already been looking for another job at the time since my mental health was getting severely impacted but I had not gotten any offers by the time I was let go based off of that employees opinions of my work.
Since then I have been working temp jobs and have been trying to regain my confidence in my abilities. Most of the jobs that I have worked do not pay the same amount as an engineer and I have started to have to go into my savings in order to pay rent, utilities, and my school bills after already moving into a much cheaper location with a roommate and having to sell my car in order to make payment and cut down on monthly costs. I am still applying for engineering jobs and have made some progress but I have been actively applying and interviewing for months and don’t have a good estimate of when I will be able to get a job that will be able to cover all of the bills. I am looking for any help to get through this tough time that I am in. With 35k of student debt in my name and struggling with the depression and self-esteem issues that the job has left me with I am just looking for anything to help me survive through these times right now. Any little bit can be a huge help.