I am currently trying to escape a terrifying relentless marriage, full of hatred & animosity, once again. I had already escaped the marriage, only to be relentlessly hunted down and found by him. My husband of almost 20 years, decided to do meth and proceed to come home & take his pent up anger out on me, on April 9th, 2019, he broke my face, leaving me with multiple fractures and nerve damage.. On that day, I decided the marriage was no more and there was nothing to fix or forgive; As he blames me, for him doing the drugs to begin with, and me making him hate me enough to even want to hit me. No matter what the situation, I did not deserve to be hit, it was NOT my fault and I refuse to be stuck in this marriage until, as he says, death do us part. But he refuses to give divorce, advising me that I am stuck in this hell that I have created and must endure this right along beside him. I don’t wish him dead, just want to be free from his intimidating ways and stop living in fear of the unknown rage that could be released upon me.
I have 2 daughters, ages 12 & 13, in the middle of all this turmoil and they deserve better as well. They are also depressed by the negativity that Dad holds for Mom so deeply. They hear it everyday, day in and day out. It is not healthy for them, as they are growing up hating life, if this is the life they must be made to endure. I am failing my daughters as a mother, keeping them in this negative environment, but they also know the difficulty of getting away from Dad. They actually have less compassion for their Dad, than their mother here does.
This past February I was able to purchase a 1984 Winnebago RV camper (28ft), with the help of the AMVETS & DAV. They heard my story through word of mouth about wanting out of marriage and the girls here in the middle of it all. This RV was to be a way to escape the marriage, to be on the run continuously, always to be on the road, home schooling girls, so not to be found by him. But as with any vehicle and this RV being so old, it has been continuously breaking down. It is currently in the garage being fixed, with unknown bill and unknown how to even PAY the bill.
My problem at hand other than the RV, is the money that I don’t have for the hotel stay while we are not able to stay in the RV. It is costing damn $200 daily that I don’t have at this moment. I honestly don’t know what I am asking for. Maybe just some help with a little money to get by on a daily basis. Trying to save money is not an option at this time, as all my efforts go into just keeping safe, sane, fed and keeping the hatred at bay. I honestly don’t know which direction is the correct path to take. Just want out of this marriage as smoothly and safely as possible.
I guess the safest thing to do would be to ask for a large lump sum of money to be able to either fix this RV or buy a newer one that won’t need constant work, so we can have some stability here. I appreciate any who have taken the time to read my story and any amount of money graciously given here, would be of help to escape this bad situation that am drowning in here. Please find it in yourself to feel my pain and see that I desperately need help here. Again, thank you for taking time out of your day to see my story.