Hell Everyone,
I guess I’ll go right into it. I’m here today hoping for a fresh start. I’ve been struggling over the last decade and I’m worried about how much longer I have left in me to continue the struggle. I grew up with not a lot of money and no one to show me financial responsibility. At the young age of 11, my mother started to kick me out due to mental health issues and I’ve just been teaching myself the ropes ever since.
I’m 34 and working about 50 hours a week. I help my friends and family and support my community as best as I can. I just can’t seem to crawl out from under this debt I’ve accrued over the last decade. I’m a service industry worker and after Covid, I’ve been struggling to recover. Due to the devastation the pandemic left us all but in my case my profession, I’ve been left with enormous debt and turned to drinking which I’ve recently been able to combat and have been sober 3 months and started to work towards my goals and find fitness again.
I often think about how little I would need to fully turn everything around and start to work toward my dream of home ownership which feels like it’ll only be a dream. Little to a lot of people anyway. Seems huge in my mind. I work really hard and every month find I’m left with little to show for it. It sucks. I want to be able to see my hard work go toward something fulfilling. I feel empty and scared all the time. I would need $20,000 to completely change my life. I worry that $20k is going to stand in my way forever. There’s no way to catch up.
Any way, maybe someone out there will see this. It honestly just feels nice to be able to put the words somewhere else outside of my mind since it’s always stuck on repeat.
Cheers to you all and Happy New Year
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