I feel so embarrassed and guilty to even be doing this but right now I am so stuck and I can’t see a way to get out. I am an artist and I feel like I have no workable skills yet. I’ve been abused as a child and have been working through it emotionally through self help books since I can’t afford a therapist and most therapists just try to hospitalize me which makes things worse for me money wise. I am half blind which makes driving near impossible, I tried to get a degree in college and was discriminated against for my anxiety and blindness, so I had to leave because it got to the point where there was death threats. Due to how my family was raised I got mixed up with an abusive boyfriend who beat the crap out of me and took all my money. I just started to do the healing work and am trying to apply to jobs but it’s so hard because I feel like all I’m doing all day is crying. I was never really taught how to take care of myself and learning that has been expensive. Last year I was married and abandoned with rent as my now ex husband was cheating on me with his cousin, the divorce process was expensive and I had to pay for it, as he ghosted me, but if I didn’t he kept messing up my taxes. I know I can get through this but I want to be smart about it and I keep getting in worse Financial situations because I’m not taking the time to heal. My family is unhelpful and abusive, all my other friends are poor and I don’t want them knowing about this. I feel like I am running out of time and I do not want to die anymore or be put in any more bad situations. My paypal is Theadora.email@example.com, any cent helps. I’m so sorry to even request. I wish I could figure it out myself but I haven’t been able to yet. I am trying many different things and then I just run into a bad situations. I have eliminated a lot of toxic people from my life but now I am cleaning up the aftermath and I don’t want to be so stressed out I could die anymore. I want to live.