“How to even start one of these?” is probably the first question I should have found the answer to. “I’m broke and need cash” just doesn’t have a ring to it. Actually, I am, which is probably the obvious point by now.
I’m sitting here today reaching that point of humility that I need to ask for help. I’ve been unemployed for a few months now after pretty much retiring every ability to even keep a job, which is odd for me since I never went more than a week without a job for the past 15 years. “Just go get a job” should be the easy solution but…
I’ve slowly been slipping further into an untreated mental illness that has been there all my life and has rapidly reared its ugly head drastically into my mid-life. What it is, I don’t know. The suspect is undiagnosed and severe ADHD and the possibility of autism. Being a child of the 80s didn’t exactly land myself in that bracket of time to catch these things young. I dealt with it the best I could for all this time but something at the start of the year just slowly twisted the cap off itself. I have trouble with short term memory, concentration, severe anxiety, bouts of depression, and lately motor skills and speech. It…took me an hour to write this.
On top of all of this, I recently completed a planned move before hitting the proverbial bottom that has left me without a mode of transportation so finding gainful employment is that much harder, especially in a city with some pretty poor public transit (as if my anxiety could handle it anyways).
The bills are piling up. I stretched a lot of my savings as far as I could for the past two months and am now sitting with a solid $5 in my account. Family and friends are tapped out. I have decent prospects for work but not for another two months and I have no idea how I’m going to recover from not paying bills in that time. It’s like I’m staring at a 100ft tall colossus armed only with a plastic fork. Please, if anyone could, arm me with a sword and shield.
I know at least $2000 will cover the bare minimum until I can provide for myself but honestly anything helps at this point. Any extra would be to help get my mental health diagnosed and to finally seek some proper care after all of these years.
Thank you for reading this far and an even bigger thank you to anyone who heeds these requests.