Hello my name is Yarina and my partners name is Chayanne our pride and joy is little Logan and we need some help. I have never done anything like this before but we are currently at our wits end with what to do with our finances. My partner works but unfortunately we live paycheck to paycheck and had a unexpected expense come in (car troubles) and we HAVE to have our car that’s how he gets around for work as he’s always on the move for his job(helper at the moment for an elevator company) Our car just started having less and less power each time we drove it and at first it was the oxygen sensor which we replaced and fixed then that wasn’t it it was more mechanical so we had to take it to the shop pay for that the overnight the labor the pieces (fuel pump) and the total of that and having to have our car towed 3 separate times because we THOUGHT it was fixed we thought it was just the oxygen sensor but it was something else as well which we were able to get fixed thank god but that’s 2,000$ we really did not have to spend, because of that my partner and I haven’t eaten in 1week(well not completely starving bread,crackers,LOTS AND LOTS RICE) but that’s all run out and the rest of the food is for our son, I rather starve then have him go hungry even for a few minutes, he’s our world and we are trying so hard, I really am looking for work but even if I did work we couldn’t afford daycare, we have one car so I can’t look for work other than online and it’s been hard due to my record I acquired in my past due to very VERY poor choices, choices I still have to deal with to this day(not finding work) I was drug addict and made horrible choices in life and sometimes I feel that my every day struggles is my karma in life for being such a horrible daughter sister etc overall just a shitty human being, BUT that’s the past and I’ve been clean for 4years now. Then on my 1st year clean I found the love of my life and we had our beautiful baby boy and life has been such a blessing since. Mind you we struggle here n there like any young couple does (I’m 27 he’s 28) but this time it’s so different, I haven’t had a night of good sleep wondering where our next meal will come from or how my partner will make it throughout work with no gas $ and we have had some real luck finding food drives here n there or just nice people who help us out if we got stranded at a gas station but there’s so much that little help here n there can do we knew we had to do it ourselves but life happens and sometimes you do need a helping hand. I hate asking for help since that was ALLLLL I ever did ask people for $ for my addiction so now people aren’t too ready to help me if you get what I mean, and I can’t even be mad because I understand and I probably wouldn’t give myself $ either but I have 4years clean under my belt that has to count for something? So my parents refuse to help us which again that’s not their problem but it was something we couldn’t avoid it just happened it was the cards we were dealt so we are trying to make the best of those cards. Things have gotten so bad I even considered becoming a sugar baby or selling my nudes to men just so my son and husband can eat, and my 3 dogs , yes I have 3 dogs ones a rescue and 2 belonged to my in-law who unfortunately passed and they had no where to go and I can’t turn away any dogs AT ALL I have used my lunch $ to feed strays and gone hungry all day because they probably needed it more than I did. I use to feed strays and rescue them all the time but due to recent financial strain I haven’t been able to do the 2nd thing I love most, the 1st being with my two special boys. My partner is a good man he tries his hardest to make things work he sells his blood pawns things left n right does WHATEVER it takes to make sure our son has everything he needs but lately it’s been hard because we just can’t get out of this hole we got into because of the car and it feels like we will never escape this hole. Our sons birthday passed and we couldn’t do anything for him and I spent his birthday crying and hating myself for being such a bad mom even tho my husband tells me I’m the best mom I can be I KNOW I can be better but we are just stuck in this hole, no matter how much we put in something happens and sets us back and the best part is right after the car problems our 1300$ rent was due and THAT made the hole even deeper. We aren’t asking for much we just need enough to get us out of this hole, jump start our lives again so we can be a family, my husband and I argue all the time we are depressed and look like skeletons from not eating so our son and dogs can eat we are just losing our minds and have no idea how to get out of this hole because I can’t work, im the reason we don’t have to pay a ridiculous daycare fee because if he was in daycare forget about it I don’t think my husband and I would even be together and that’s honestly our next step. Having to leave our place and split up our family until we can get back on our feet me with my grandma and him with his dad and I don’t want that, I can’t imagine a day without him thinking about that now is making me cry because he’s my soulmate even if we struggle and he can’t give me the world idc I just want him and my son that’s all I want I don’t want us to separate I love my family and feel so useless being stuck at home and I can’t even work from home because we have no WiFi we can’t afford it we have nothing just my phone to watch tv and shows on. We only have one working AC unit because we can’t afford another one it just all adds up to a horrible time all because of that ONE UNEXPECTED BILL. My husband doesn’t even know I’m doing this he would be so upset he’s a man with a lot of pride but I just want to do ANYTHING to help him I mean ANYTHING hence the mention earlier of me even willing to entertain a lonely man for exchange of $$ but I just can’t do it, my husband is the only man I want looking at me or even thinking of me in that way, so I googled how to earn quick money and came across a link that’s for people who want to help others out and I figured I’d give it a shot. Hopefully my story compelled someone to lend us a hand because at this point anything helps even a 1$ helps :/ just want to get back to the old us, I want to be able to say “hey let’s take logan to the beach today” something that doesn’t cost $ like that but we can’t even afford the gas to head to the beach because that gas is for work only, I don’t remember the last time I left this house to have a family outing, because even before the 3,300 grand we were already living paycheck to paycheck so we never got out much but we did have those special occasions and now we don’t do anything but stay at home in the dark to save electricity so our bill isn’t high just sitting on our phones researching ways to make $ or me looking for ANYTHING I can do from home that doesn’t require WiFi and a laptop but pretty much every job requires that unless you want to sell your nudes to men which I don’t lol. I just want my life back I want the old me back I’m depressed every single day I want my husband back he’s always working to support us and when he’s home he’s just stressed and sad and it kills me because I can’t do anything, I know he tells me that I am helping him by staying home with Logan because we can’t afford daycare but i don’t care I still feel useless and he’s my partner he’s going to tell me whatever he has to to make me happy and not feel sad and I love him so much for that and I just want him happy, I just want him to not struggle anymore and be able to take ONE day off because now we are out of this hole so we can take a breather and enjoy our son to the fullest and give him the things he deserves. Anything helps….