I got a full-ride to a very good, undergraduate school that swept me away from my southern-Missouri hometown to a life on the east coast. At 17, I left my grandmother, uncle, and sister (my only living family) to pursue the college path solo and unsupported. I worked very hard and did well in school (even managed a semester abroad!) but hit my lowest-point my senior year (this past holiday season) when I had my first suicidal episode was formally diagnosed with severe major depression.
With the structure of college, support of professors, and school health insurance I went on medication and finished strong. However, now that I’ve graduated things are different. I can’t afford my medication now that I no longer have insurance. My family never went to college and I couldn’t afford to move back to MO so am trying to make it alone. My depression is severe and characterized by suicidal ideation–if the meds treat the mood, I still have extreme issues concentrating, cry unpredictably, and have issues maintaining energy. So, while I’ve been diligently looking for a career and tutoring $15hrs/wk and doing freelance writing, my situation becomes more and more desperate.
I graduated with $1300 in savings but after living expenses for one month, I had to take out a loan to pay this month’s rent. With moving expenses & security deposit I’ve maxed one credit card and maxed another after the stress of my first month in the real world created a spiral that lead to a suicide attempt. I’m very young and definitely don’t want to die but things feel very bad right now. I don’t have any family to lean on as many others do when looking for the first job out of college and my disability is a factor I never counted on. My debt currently totals $4290.02, I just ate my final package of ramen, I put my last $10 on my metro card so I can make it to and from the interviews where my MD always interferes.
My medication is $70, if you could spare it! One bottle could change so much in my life, right now!
Also, if you know anyone in the DMV who can accommodate a disability and is hiring, please let me know!