My name is Sandra and I am a single mother of 3. My two oldest are young adults and live in other cities. So it is just my 9 year old Skye and I.
Even though, Skyes, father and I share custody, he is completely out of the picture. He has chosen to stay away and even though we live in the same city, he has not tried to see Skye in over two years. This has affected Skye a lot as she grows and is able to understand more. My little girl and I have been through so much. Skye is intellectual and legally blind. For that reason, I find it very hard to think of myself as a woman and I just focus on being a good mommy.
I have fallen into a depression and now I don’t find interest in anything. Since I work remotely from home, I don’t ever have to leave my apartment. I don’t visit family or friends and I feel I am just getting worst. This is affecting not just me, but Skye as well. As she can sense when I am not ok.
I was able to get a good used car for us to move around, after years of not having a car. Since, I didn’t have to worry about my car registration, I didn’t remember I had traffic tickets. So, when my Driver License expired and I tried to renew them, it was denied because of some tickets I owed from seven years ago. I honestly, did forget about those tickets when I started working and clearing my debt. I didn’t have a car for years. I went to go see the Judge and even though he wanted to arrest me on the spot, with the grace of the all mighty he gave me a 45 day grace period to pay $1800. He was clear if that was not taken care of, there will be a warrant for my arrest. This has me so worried, I know I cannot come up with that amount on my own in such a short period of time. I am so afraid of what will happen to my little Skye if I am put in jail for these tickets.
Skye, and I will be starting therapy soon. Hers will be OT, PT and speech. Mine is emotional and anger I have for her dad for leaving me to care for her alone. I have always been a very strong woman and don’t feel right asking for help. I have always felt like there must be someone else who needs it more than me. So, I always think of something, move payments around and we always seem to make it. This, I know I will not be able to take care of. It’s simply too much. I am praying for help and that I finally get a little break to move forward and continue to take care of my little girl. Please help!