If i had I wouldn’t be here today having to ask for help from complete strangers, but here I am. Let me start by saying thank you to everyone who takes the time to read my story.
I grew up decently for the most part. Never any ‘extra’ money, but never had to go without necessities. It was just my mom and I while I was growing up. When I got older she met my step-dad who I adored. I didnt know the things that would happen behind closed bedroom doors, thankfully, until in my late teenage years when my mom ended up in the hospital from being hit so hard she became unconscious. Thats when so many past occurrences came flashing back and I realized that I had missed so many signs of the abuse. But never knowing what to look for before, I had no idea at the time.
We get out of that situation, but unfortunately other boyfriends that she found would end up doing the same things to her. She would always tell me if I ever found myself in that situation, to run. Run as fast as I could and as far as possible and never look back.
Unfortunately I found myself in that exact situation years later after I had settled down, got married and had kids. I should have seen all the red flags, I had seen them so many times before right? This time I didnt. I was blinded by love, or what I mistook for love. The controlling, jealousy and manipulation that was filling my life, I thought was caring, love and help.
I was dead wrong. It started behind closed doors, then it happened in front of our kids. I had let it slide before because im not in the position financially to take my kids and leave. So up until the point it happened in front of the kids, I made excuses, jabs at myself seeming I was always tripping over things.
But after that day I could no longer hide anything from them. They didn’t need to ever see that nor did I deserve for it to happen. The reason I’m here today is to ask for help for funds to move/relocate and be able to afford costs that go with it. Rent/deposit, utility deposits, moving truck, etc. Ive been desperately looking for apts/houses for rent with immediate availability and have found several. I just need the funds to make it happen. Im asking for about 4-5000 to be able to make everything happen.
With that I can have 2 months rent paid, deposit and all utilities turned on. And ill be able to get back on my feet in a safe environment for myself and my kids.
Thank you to everyone who has taken the time to read this. And even if you’re not able to donate, send some positive vibes, prayers, or anything positive my way. All will be more than appreciated.
I wish I had known then what i know now and paid attention to the red flags and abusive behavior that I confused for love.