Image above is my current account, a week after being paid.
My name is Lizzi and I am 25 years old. I am also £30,000 in debt and trying to get my life back together after a very drastic nosedive into mental health relapses. I never thought this would be my life; I’ve always suffered mental health problems in the form of depression and eating disorders however I also managed to keep on top of my illnesses and was well into recovery when things took a turn.
I was badly attacked at the end of 2017 and at the time (and to be honest, some days still,) I felt like my life was over and the pain would never go away. Mentally I’d never experienced anything that devastating in my life before and I wouldn’t wish it on anyone. I was diagnosed with PTSD and sunk into a very deep depression. I was scared to leave my house, couldn’t be alone, couldn’t go out in the dark, and couldn’t be around a lot of people or in confined spaces. I had constant nightmares and flashbacks and a lot of the things I’d previously found joy in died the night of the attack. I was put on regular medications for the first time which I still take to this day.
But how did that turn into crippling debt? Well I was desperate for absolutely anything that might make me feel even a tiny bit better, happier, more human. I quickly maxed out credit cards on clothes which I no longer had the confidence to wear and I booked holidays to ‘find myself again’ which I had to cancel because let’s face it, if I couldn’t leave the house, how was I going to leave the country?! With every failure such as this I felt worse and so was even more desperate for a cure to the sadness. This whole period was much of a haze; I really felt like I was losing my mind entirely and struggled to make any kind of rational decisions. I tried to take my own life on more than one occasion and can honestly say I never want to be in that place again.
I’m glad to say that I am out of the darkest darkness however I’m left with very little – I am making it through each month by borrowing from friends and working 60+ hour weeks to keep my creditors at bay as I am at risk of losing what little possessions I have left; I’ve already sold all of the things that I owned that were of value and am fighting to keep a roof over my head.
I am asking for absolutely any donations that anybody can spare and will be grateful for anything. I’m not looking for my debt to be paid off, that’s going to be a long road. Right now I am just seeking assistance getting through the month with enough food, petrol and medication.
Thank you for reading.