I am seeking help to recover from my financial stress.
My family grew up very poor, however, I worked hard to ensure I had a good education in order to help the family. Throughout that journey, there was lots of despair, stress and the feeling of giving up. However, the fuel that kept me was the dream of making my mom happy.
She became ill when I was only 10 and life made another turn for me and my siblings. But we remained positive and I always had great conviction that I would become successful.
As I became an adult, life became a bit easier and I was able to help the family. My siblings also did well enough for themselves and we were on the path to success.
The family then split up – mom and brother moved to USA, I moved to Canada and other sibling remained in Jamaica. Throughout all this, we all had no paternal support.
While in Canada with no family, I was able to beat the odds and get a good enough job. I proved myself and got promoted quickly through the ranks. And it looked like my dream was closer to reality.
Throughout all this, I’ve contributed significant financially to family, friends and others in need, as I knew what I experienced and can sympathize with anyone in that situation
Last year things took a turn. I assisted someone in need. It turned out that he was not sincere and it led me on a slippery slide which kept getting worse until my current situation where I have huge loans, damaged my credit, unable to help my family who is depending on me, and have my salary vanish the minute I get paid.
This situation has caused me tremendous pain, embarrassment, and debt. But most significantly – depression. As I have not revealed my situation to anyone – can’t. It kills me inside and I have nowhere to turn at the moment.
Despite the many dark thoughts that creep into me each day, theres still some strength and hope that there is a light somewhere and that why I haven’t given up quite yet. I’m hoping to get back on my feet, when I would be a wiser person and be careful next time.
I’ve learned that success and failure are much closer together than we might think, and it doesn’t take much to fall from the sky to the ground.
I hope there is someone out there who can help. I am usually very private and do not even have the courage to beg for help. But Im giving it a try here.
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