Please read - trying to break free from a toxic environment

Hello there,

a part of me feels relieved that this is anonymous, the other part is completely embarrassed that I’ve resorted to this.

I live in a strict (Indian) household, with parents who say I am living for them – not me. They have all of these cultural expectations; “you need to be married” “you need to settle down” “you’re not allowed to go out” “you’re nothing” “you’re worthless” do this, do that etc. my mental health has been affected. Ive been diagnosed depression, anxiety and low mood and prescribed medication for this

Growing up, I had no social life. I wasn’t allowed. Seeing friends or going out after school or work is “wrong” in their eyes, and it affected me hugely. I was always left out. I’m isolated, I have anxiety and depression and I feel trapped.

i understand you need to respect your parents, and of course I do. But I’m never able to live life how I want it or be my authentic self. In fact, more recently, even planning my 27th birthday with friends has felt like the biggest battle at home.

Yes, that’s right – 27!

With so many cultural pressures, the reason I’m seeking help is to raise funds so I can move out and finally break free from this vicious, toxic household. I say toxic because they even have a tracker on my phone – which I turned off, only to be turned on again to save the arguing.

I don’t really have a real relationship with my parents, we only ever really speak if they something. And even then, I’d argue it isn’t good enough. My brother on the other hand, could get away with murder and he’ll always be an angel.

I completely understand that whilst people are on here raising funds for life saving treatments, I just need some help to honestly, just break free.

however, I am £2500 in debt which makes it hard for me to move forward. I am trying to save my wages, but I contribute a lot towards home, making it very difficult to save.

I have recently been in a car accident whereby my car has been written off – yes I’ll get insurance money but I still need to get a replacement car with this.

in order for me to move forward, I simply want to pay off this credit

I know I’m in a better position than most, but if there is anyone out there who is generous enough to contribute towards paying off my debts I would truly be grateful.

Anything would be hugely appreciated: PayPal.me/jassykg a