I feel like I owe you all an explanation as to why you should even read my letter, I owe you all an honest inside read about why I really really need your help. They say a little goes a long way and right now I am trying so hard to be an optimist but sometimes we hit rock bottom and that’s where I am right now. So here it goes….
I am a very proactive person, I don’t sit around asking for sympathy votes so for me to post on such a public forum feels like I have been defeated mentally and physically. I am so tired and exhausted.
Long story short, I am currently living out of my car, I shower and spend most of my time at the local university trying to go unnoticed. And yes I am trying to get a job as it has been 2 weeks that I have been living like this. I left my ex boyfriend who beat me and abused me very badly. Since I ran away from home to live with him my family cut all ties with me, and the friends I did have left me also. I don’t blame them, I was naive and stupid and thought I knew what was best. I wanted to prove everyone wrong that I could make things work and instead got much more than I bargained for…much more!
I’ve had 5 miscarriages because he beat me so bad, I have suffered so much at the hands of a monster. Why didn’t I leave? Purely because I wanted to prove everyone wrong, because if I left where would I go? I would have nothing? Who would even care? What would become of me? All these questions made my brain twist and turn and every time I thought of leaving I couldn’t until now. These are the choices I made so why do I need to ask you all for help…I got myself in I should be able to get myself out…
As I sit here with my phone charging in the library and on SEEK.COM (job search) I have little to no hope.
I’m sorry this story is long, but please if anyone could give me help or even give the littlest of money you’re help will not go unnoticed. I never thought in a million years I would be in this situation. I am left embarrassed and torn and most days I want to sleep and never wake up. Sometimes I even think of returning back to him. There is little to no support here, I have tried to apply for help all I get are the same empty answers from people that are supposed to help those in need.
Please everyone, help me get back on my feet. I feel like I should just give up.
Thank you for reading my story