Hello, beautiful world! I’m Billie and the handsome fella in the pics is my only child and the love of my life, Buddha. So I’m just gonna jump right in… 5weeks ago I walked away from the life I’ve always known, leaving every single thing, besides a backpack and Buddha, behind. And when I say everything, I mean everything (car, laptop, phone, deleting all previously used google, Facebook, etc accounts) anything that could be not only tied to my previous life but also anything that could be held against me in anyway. I just figured it would be best to just leave it all behind along with my old self and her lack of self worth, self love, empowerment, a voice. I decided to pack a bag and take a greyhound to a new beginning after 13 years of silently suffering in an abusive, in every sense of the word, relationship where fear had taken over every decision and aspect of my life in that every single decision I made was 1000% based on fear. I wasn’t so much fearful of him anymore, you can get use to anything overtime, I was living a life I hated every second of everyday because of an overwhelming fear of what would happen if I left. Fear he would come after me, hack my accounts, social and financial, take my car (in his name) my phone, laptop, etc (in his name) basically destroy my life any way possible. That’s when I realized, I don’t need any of those things nor that life that I was so fearful of him destroying. He had already done that. So, there you have it, I grabbed Buddha and a backpack, bought a one way greyhound ticket, bought a new phone paid one month, one month rent, and $100. That’s it. Yep, crazy, I know, but I figured I’d use community resources and find good support groups and such. Unfortunately starting completely over is a lot harder than one may think. Point being, here I am, 5 weeks later, monthly bus pass expired, 115 degrees is hell in Buddha making it impossible to get anywhere ( mind you I literally have no money for groceries or anything else, no joke not a single penny to my name at this point) I applied for food stamps but have not received a determination back on if I’m approved or not, fingers crossed. The landlord here has been really flexible and patient with me but now that I’m behind on rent $1200, my phone bill of $59 was due two days ago so my phone was turned off, I’m really starting to wonder if I made the right choice. With all that being said, I am humbly asking for help with the above mentioned basics for survival and nothing more.
Rent $1200 (mth of June)
phone $59 (past due 6/26)
transportation of any kind
groceries for a week $100 including buddhas food : )
Also a goal as soon as possible: legally changing name $320
i know it’s a lot to ask from someone you’ve never met, and it was so incredibly hard to convince myself to reach out in the first place considering I’m asking strangers for help but seeing as i have not a single person in my new life as of yet, everybody is currently a stranger: ).
I know no matter what me and my buddha baby will not only be okay and survive, we will thrive and be forever grateful for this new life, I’m saying that we don’t needsucceed in anything set out to do because we have each other and you’remy life and we love it there and we will be happy and healthy no matter where we are financially situation because we are living the life we love our second of every day I lovchoose the road by our standards arethank you for listening and continue lighting up the darkness!