I dont know how to explain this but Im going to try. Getting to the heart of the matter why I am in this position at this age. I have found myself in what seems to be standing inbetween freedom and freefall. Nobody ever told me that although you will have ups and downs in this life. That there would be people who will literally throw blocks in your way, or use you to help them get up, and then leave you. The only help I have out here is my brother and sister who are both below poverty blue collar workers who I am sure if they had more they would help more. I am just really in need of some help financially. I have helped too many people and I have short changed myself. As I am writing this tearing up because I will not give up trying and I know that the world is a mean and nasty place to be asking for any kind of help outside of people who actually know you. But those are the people who have actually been the cause of my collapse. The people who are supposed to be closest to you. You help them up and they dissappear when you need them. I am sure this is a story heard so many times before its a meme for everybody to laugh at on the internet. But its my story. Which it makes it that much tougher to deal with because I have so many things ahead of me now that I have rid myself of these people. But I have no financial means to help me get to my dreams because I allowed myself to be drainied dry, because of my giving heart. My sister and I was discussing this the other day. About who takes care of the “care takers”? But we came to the conclusion there is no such thing. I have learned a hard lesson in pouring from an empty cup and I would hope that no one who gives me money through this platform would ever do that to themselves. Only give if you are able to without shorting yourself. I am working towards a better life. I have got the ball rolling on a few things to get myself back on my feet. But the walls are quickly closing in on me where I need some help to maintain before I can get myself right side up. That is all that Im asking for between $500-$1000 to help me get right side up on my life. This has to be one of the most hardest lessons of my life is that its not selfish to take of yourself first and its okay to not be the one to save the day for everybody. Im not sure what else I can say that will help someone see the sincerity in my post out of thousands of other post. But I would hope that someone who is empathetic enough could feel the real emotion in this post that is me asking for real help to help me help myself to get back on my feet and continue to work towards my dreams.
The photgraph of me that I used for this post was me before the crash! I just want to return to being in control of my life. It wont take much at this point but it will take some help. Im not sure who or how else to ask for help! I am determined to come out of this victorious I will not just be defeated.