Hello. I never imagined to find myself in such a dire and desperate position… I’ve worked hard since the 5th grade when my parents bought a bar and restaurant. I am good, kind, caring, and selfless 44 year old mother of one, with a strong work ethic and am highly employable… but no matter how hard Ive tried this past year, I cannot catch a break. My son is an adult now and as a newly empty nester I was extremely lonely and found myself in an abusive relationship for 3 yrs. I had never been in one before… heck, I even had a 12 yr career in social services working with domestic abuse victims. I never even saw it coming before I realized I was now a victim. I fought for an additional 2 years to completely break free…during those two years my abuser worked to dissolve my small circle of friends and my relationships with my sister and my mom. I was totally alone and isolated. Yet finally, for the past year… almost to the day I write this, I have had no contact with my abuser. The last time I had contact with him, he assaulted me so badly I couldn’t get up from the floor. I watched as he took the $8,000 I had been saving to move out of state with from its new hiding spot, and walked out my door. I later found 6 tiny cameras in my home and understood how he always seemed to know my every move. A few days after I was beaten and robbed, my place of employment closed and I was never paid my final wages. Although this past year has been free of physical pain… I’ve been isolated, and mentally and emotionally exhausted… ive been struggling to keep up to date with my bills while working jobs that offer immediate pay—amazon flex, Shipt, Uber eats and door dash. These jobs have taken a toll on my car which has led to multiple repairs and only added to the need for immediate payouts. I rented cars numerous times while my car was at the mechanics. For month I was just getting by… but then at the end of April I got sick for two weeks. I continued to work but was limited to the points of exhaustion. I still somehow got back up to date with my bills. I was also back on track to pay my June rent on time with one week to work… I had just rented a car for that week as my car was back at the mechanic. Then out of the blue my sister called me. My mom had been taken by ambulance and my sister told me she needed me as there were some serious complications and decisions needed to be made. I immediately drove the 2.5 hrs to the hospital where my mom lived and saw my mom for the first time in over three years. I spent that one week I had to make my rent money btwn my moms bedside and her home with my stepdad who has dementia. His two children eventually arrived flying in from the west coast and btwn the four of us plans were made. My sister would be taking my mom back home with her as she needs 24 hr care and would be meeting with specialists and had ongoing doctor appts. I would return home to work for a few days and then drive back out to care for my step dad until my step siblings found an assisted living residence that they both could live in together. My step brother was going to pay me well and upfront so that I could get back up to date with my bills. I didn’t like the idea of being paid to care for my step dad but his son insisted and I wouldn’t have been able to do this any other way. I had also asked my step brother if I could use my moms car to work for a few days. Without hesitation he said, “of course!” And that he would let my sister know. My step sister stayed with her dad for that last week and I would be relieving her on Sunday. Friday came and I still hadn’t heard back from anyone. I finally called and was coldly informed that the plan had changed and they had hired a PCA and that I couldn’t use my moms car. Come to find out my sister had talked to my step siblings and I’m still not sure what was said… but I was literally shut out. I eventually paid my June rent… but this has had an overwhelming toll on my mental health and the stress caused me to get sick – again. I haven’t seen my mom since she’s gotten out of the hospital. I’ve asked my sister and she ignores me. I don’t even know why im writing this… I guess there’s still some small glimmer of hope. But it’s the end of July… my rent is not paid in full yet for the month, my car is broke down… I have no food… my lease ends 9/1… I have no money saved at all to find a new place to live… my mom won’t return my calls or texts… I’ve asked my sister and step siblings for a loan so I can just get in my feet—get my car fixed and find an apt to rent… but im being told to check into shelters and that I need to take the bus…. I’m so hurt right now… I don’t even know what to do. My landlord is being short and rude every chance she gets. I feel like I just should have stayed home and worked instead of going to be with my mom… but of course I needed to help with mom. I haven’t told my son the extent of all of this because I know he is stretched thin caring for his dad and works to keep a roof over their head. His dad broke his back some years ago but has chronic pain and can hardly work.
I don’t know if there’s anyone who will read this… I know it’s long… but I just wanted to be completely transparent. Im sure I didn’t present my case well… but I don’t even know the proper way to ask for money. If I had the ability to take a loan to address my immediate needs in getting my car fixed, up to date with my rent and past due bills, and securing an apt to move in 9/1, it would be for $4500. But really, all I’m hoping for is that whoever reads this can sense the hopelessness confusion sadness and honesty in my words… and those who have the ability and desire to help someone in need, I can assure you I will be forever grateful and I will not let you down. If you would like, please include your email with your donation as I would like to reach out and keep you updated and/or thank you at the very least.
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