What can I really say? I’ve walked a long, long, winding road my entire life. I can’t think of one time aside from childhood where life was easy. My childhood isn’t much to write home about so I won’t bother there. What does matter is now. Throughout the journey known as my life, I grew to be a very solitary person and because of that I pushed nearly everyone out of my life. The two biggest people that I lost do to my own poor decisions influenced by mental health issues are my mother and my daughter. When I turned 40, a lot of those mistakes I made when I was younger came back and punched me right in the mouth. I’m not sure if it was getting older that made me think about everything more… Or maybe it was me sitting alone and yet another hotel room, trying to defeat the depression in my mind… All I know is it seems that life has come back full circle for me now.I miss my mother. I miss my daughter. And I miss everything that I no longer have. All these things that I’m missing now I used to push out of my mind when I was younger and living stupidly… To shorten this little so I may get to the point… I have been estranged from my mother for years and I’ve been estranged from my daughter for even longer. I know this may make me sound like a heartless individual, but before I could shut all of that out. Now I no longer can. As I am living in Massachusetts, I was told just last week that my mother has throat cancer and will be undergoing surgery soon down in Florida where she lives. My daughter lives with my mother and is devastated by all of this. For the first time in too many years to remember, I actually want to go and be there for my mother and for my daughter in a way that is indescribable. My problem is I cannot support any type of move down to Florida. I would do anything for anyone if they could help me in any way getting to Florida. I’m a man who has never asked for help, even when that I had to suffer needlessly. I feel bad even asking now… If this was something that involved me personally I wouldn’t even ask for help. But for once in my life, I want to be a real son to my mother. And for once in my life as a parent, I want to be a dad for my daughter. If I don’t get help then I will just exist in my misery and probably find every excuse on why I can’t get to Florida. The fact of the matter is covid-19 cost me my job, all of my savings, it caused me to have to sell most of my possessions and it has nearly ruined my life. I’m hoping that they’re truly is guardian angels and I want to see a real miracle for once in my life… And to me the only miracles that matter is being able to get down to Florida to be with my daughter and my mother, especially if she may pass….
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