Hello. I’ve never been on or used this site before, so please forgive me if my message sounds awkward.
I am a young woman that has recently graduated from college in December. I am in the 4th month of my post-graduation job search. So far, I have done some job gigs here and there and been to and through a few interviewing processes, but nothing has worked out thus far.
I had a very rocky start to my adult life, and this has keenly affected me since then. When I was 5 years old, my father passed away from cancer, leaving my family severely destitute. Unfortunately, the mother my siblings and I had left was anything but loving and caring. She was verbally, emotionally, and physically abusive, and I got the brunt of most of it because I was the eldest. She would regularly kick me out of the house (as well as her other children) and starve us by giving away our government food benefits or simply prohibiting us from eating. I finally moved away after one horrible event at the age of 18 when my mother almost strangled me to death. Attempting to move forward in life, I settled in another state with some family members and went on to finish high school and begin community college. Unfortunately, everything was a struggle since I had little money from retail and work-study jobs I secured. Thankfully, when I transferred to a university, I received an amazing scholarship that paid for almost all of my tuition and additional fees. Shortly after, I had to move out from my family member’s place because of some uncomfortable relationship issues they were experiencing. Again, I had to live in an unstable environment. Now living with my grandmother, who was at least not physically abusive but constantly had explosive and unpredictable moods, was reminiscent of the experience of living with my mother. Although I was 21 years old at the time, she nitpicked and complained about everything I did and constantly belittled me. One night when she was angry about something her guests did, she barged into my room, cursing and blaming me for the issue. After I proved my innocence and explained, she kept berating and harassing me. Since she didn’t like that I argued with her, she kicked me out that night. This happened during the middle of my last semester at university. Suddenly, I was spending a lot more money than I was expecting. I ended up staying with a friend, moving my things into storage, and focusing on school as much as possible. The commute to my school was much longer than it was previously. So, this, among other things, such as car troubles, storage costs, and recurring monthly bills drained the money I had saved.
Now, I am staying with two family friends, but I am struggling to keep hope alive and stay afloat.
At this point, I am out of funds. I probably won’t be able to move for a while, so I’ve just been trying to get by day-to-day. Unfortunately, my side gigs aren’t cutting it anymore, and I have no more money for food, personal necessities, bills, or gas. I am close to maxing out my credit card and still owe some people money. I am currently about $2,500 and counting in debt. I am still deep in my job search and hoping to get hired this month asap. I am desperate right now and don’t have anyone to turn to. I don’t feel comfortable asking the 2 people I owe money to again for more money because, although they are better off than me, they are not rich and have families to care for. Please help me with whatever is possible. Any and everything would be so extremely appreciated. Thank you for reading this far, and please have a wonderful day.
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