Today I woke up and decided that it was time to really ask for help. I’m 22 years old, a responsible, intelligent individual. I tend to always plan ahead, calculate my expenses and take it day by day by doing what is working for me, but everyday it just keeps getting harder and harder for me. I moved into my first apartment August 22nd, 2020. I was so excited to finally be free of parents and adults and just live under my own rules and do things my own way, that I had saved enough money to be able to do. I always knew it was expensive to move but I didn’t realize how fast and how much you’d need the things you do for your house. So I moved (out of state, from Maryland to North Carolina) and I had a job that seemed like it would pay for everything with no problems. So I knew things were going to be okay, as I started working there which I started the very next day after I moved into my apartment, I was happy and so joyful, but the more I would go to that job the more they would do suspicious things and just wouldn’t do things professionally, and one night I had an anxiety attack and it made it so hard for me to continue working for or even DRIVE to that job just because I would be so anxious every time (horrible feeling), I wanted to quit that same night but I have bigger bills now so I tried to get over it, so after working there and waiting THREE weeks on my first paycheck, after I got my paycheck I seen how low it was and I was SO disappointed that I decided to quit because for 1 my anxiety was definitely getting in the way of my work, we would have to be there for 10-12 hours so by the time I get off I have to wake up and do it all over again 5 days a week (mind you I just moved into my first apartment, so I never had time to even be there, unpack or anything) & then after doing things I don’t like and having to wait forever on a paycheck that could not even pay more than 1 bill.. I couldn’t take it. So I got a new job about a week or 2 later at uhaul I was happy to be back at a job considering I have expensive bills, BUT the pay was only $10, I use to be a server so i wouldn’t leave my job with less than 150-250 everyday, so to go from having cash EVERY DAY to waiting on a check that doesn’t even pay rent .. is sad. I’ve been trying to find ways to make new money, I have a hair and nail business I am trying to start and because I NEVER have money for myself anymore I can’t start it or even grow right now
. I currently doordash to help pay for some things but nobody tips enough these days most tips are $3-5 and that’s not enough. I have about 3 people that can sometimes help me but I ask them for help so much I feel so bad every time and I owe them and it’s always hard for me to pay them back because i usually only have enough money for gas or food but barely both unless i work extra but all my money goes straight to bills or overdrafts & my bank account is always over drafted. I can never save, or have enough to get every thing I need, I always have to sacrifice and pick one or the other, My rent was due and it’s almost a whole new month, and I’m so backed up and behind on things i really don’t know if I’ll ever get out of this situation. Sigh it saddens me because I’ve ALWAYS been good with my money, bills were ALWAYS paid on time and in full, just to move and have the complete opposite happen. I suffer from anxiety and depression so I’m NEVER really happy & with all this going on in my everyday life it’s hard to not let it take over. So i just ask for any help i can get and hope for the best.