Hello everyone, I hope you can help me!
My name is Tara and I have experienced much bad luck in life. Lately many things have gone wrong for me and I am behind on rent and bills. I have been trying to find a job with no success.
An additional problem with that is that my car is not running, I have no money to get it fixed, I have no money to pay for it’s parking space either, that’s due in a few days. I don’t want to sell it because it really is a necessity, especially to get a job.
Today I walked to a pawn shop to try to sell some silver dishes – which they did not want, it was 2 hours of walking for nothing. And I had just hoped to get a few bucks to get a lottery ticket, I have no idea how else I can get money. So I am trying this.
I mention this in regards to my job search, I am willing to walk to a nearby mall for a basic job, but I do have ongoing bone and joint issues.
This stems from being infected with e.coli a few years ago. I was really sick and the drugs they give you for this are chemo drugs (which are so dangerous they are now banned) and anthrax medicines. The cure was worse than the disease.
There’s so much irony in all this too. I am a vegetarian – I got the e.coli from falling into polluted water. Additionally – one of the subjects I studied is – environmental science. That was a mistake because there are no jobs in this. Oh but I have student loans to pay though.
I did also study mechanical engineering. And we all know what happened to US manufacturing jobs. I don’t expect to get any sort of job like that again, but would be happy with a basic retail job. Which for some reason I am not having any success with getting.
I mention that also because – wouldn’t you know my car has – electrical problems, not mechanical.
During the Covid pandemic I was able to survive on some money I inherited. That’s gone now. And went faster than expected due to constant unforeseen issues, car problems especially.
After walking to the nearby mall today, I fear I might not be able to walk there daily let alone do a physical job. The bone and joint issues, side effects from the chemo drugs.
Not that anyone is contacting me about such jobs anyway. Prior to this I was taking care of the relative who left me some money, I guess people don’t see elder care as a “real job”. I have created a simple resume, which is honest, eg. I have been unemployed due to Covid, prior to I took care of a relative, and then before that I summarized various retail and office skills. You’d think I could get a basic retail job.
Also, more things gone wrong, speaking of walking – I have two pair of boots and both of them are falling apart! Car craps out, OK I’ll walk then. Then boots, both pairs – fail!
On and on it goes. I am behind on rent and bills, I desperately need help! I hope to also find a way to create my own business. Even if it would just be buying and selling online, I feel I will have better luck being able to work at my own pace. It doesn’t look like I’m going to be able to do the physical work I used to. I used to be *an athlete* and since I got sick with the e.coli, the drugs involved really ran me down. I haven’t been the same since.
I would be OK with house cleaning too, but again – that’s hard physical work. And on that, thinking of another issue – a few years ago, while trying to fix myself up, cleaning = exercise so I thought I’d do a thorough cleaning of my apartment. I finished that on a Friday, I took a bath, I went for a walk by some nearby woods, the next day I woke up with what looked like chemical burns on my face.
I was bit by a brown recluse spider. That’s what I got for my cleaning efforts. Did I disturb something? Or did I pick it up on my walk? I don’t know, all I know is that I now have scars on my face. I can’t afford to see a doctor to try to fix that either. And I fear cleaning now too. I know there’s no way I could work as a house cleaner, my bones and joints (chemo drugs) are too far gone now.
I am a spiritual person, I pray to the spirits daily, practically hourly, for help! Oh I could go on and on about all the bizarre things that have happened to me. Thinking of a jerk who was stalking me. That gave me PTSD. I could write a book about my strange life. It’s one calamity after another! No one would ever believe it was non fiction. I hardly believe it – and I’m living it! I really am having trouble coping lately, I feel as if I’m one step from a complete mental breakdown.
But I mention spirituality because one of the business ideas I have is – basically things to do with spirituality like good luck charms, hex signs, candles. All things positive from various religions and mythology. I think I could be at least moderately successful with this, I do know how to make things and how to source product and all that. But of course I’m going to need capital to get started on it. And a running car.
My general plan lately was – get a basic retail job and then I could work on these ideas after hours. I had no idea it would be so difficult to get a simple job. And then all these problems hit and now I’m really in a bind here.
I really desperately need help. I am behind on all my bills, I fear being evicted, I fear losing my parking space – for my non running car – everything has just gone wrong lately and I really need help.
Anything anyone can give will be greatly appreciated! I’m in such a bind that I had to go to a food pantry. Thought of, more walking, they were surprised I had walked all the way there! But it’s all I could do. Thankfully a nice person there gave me a ride home. God bless these people! One day I hope to be in a position where I can give to others.
Thank you for reading my tales of woe here! I so hope folks will help! All help greatly appreciated!