It really is a weird feeling, to be here, on this site, to beg kind strangers to help me out, but here I am.
My parents have always been physically and psychologically abusive, they never really cared for me or loved me, Since I was a child, to them, I was just a cleaning lady. I had to keep the house clean, wash and iron the clothes, and try to get by with the canned or pre-cooked food items they gave me. According to them, they were prepping me to become a “good Christian wife”, and they were doing me a favor.
I was never rebellious, I just accepted that that was my life, and thought everyone else shared the same experience as I did. But then I got to high school, and I started having suicidal thoughts, and harming myself. Thankfully, I had a teacher who noticed I was suffering, and they gave me the phone number of a psychologist who would help me for free. That was the begging of the end of my life as I knew it.
I kept my appointments with this psychologist hidden from my parents, because I knew they wouldn’t approve. I slowly realized, step by step, that the reality I was living in was NOT what “normal” people where experiencing, so I started building anger inside of me, and I slowly, but surely, stopped being my parents’ maid and puppet.
They, of course, didn’t take that well, and it all culminated in them kicking me out of the house a month ago. I am currently sleeping on a friend’s couch, because my upbringing, and the current covid situation, are making it super hard for me to find a job, so I thought that maybe someone, out there, can help me out in this moment of need.
I want to get back on my feet, and some classes to help me get some titles that would help me find a job in an easier way, but they are all way too expensive, and I can’t even afford to pay rent or buy food, let alone doing this kind of thing.
So, this is it, my story, as candid as I could be. I hope someone can actually help me, and if you decide to do so, I will forever be thankful to you for your kindness.
I hope you all have a nice day,