Hi my name is Lisa & I am throwing a big party for my milestone Birthday.
I have been planning for two years. ( I never thought I would reach this age with all the dangerous things I have lived through) I am truly grateful and wanted to celebrate with my family and close friends. I am a very detailed person – I feel if you put extra effort into the small things it means and shows alot. I have already spent alot of money $$$$$ the 5 digit kind and now I am short $4000.00.
A very close family member recently passed away a couple of months ago that was like a sister to my Mom. My mom became depressed as she feels everyone is passing away and she is next- I pray not I love my Mommy. So I used some of the money to fix her kitchen: cabinets, stove, microwave & floor. The last item will be the refrigerator sometime before Christmas. This has lifted her spirits as she enjoys cooking and loves her new kitchen. I am very Happy to see my Mom happy.
I am also honoring her at the party as a surprise for her 75th.
I feel I am going to be embarrassed if I can’t pay this bill – because I don’t know where or whom to beg for this loan from. I have tried and to no avail. There are so many people that are exciting to celebrate with me and I am so afraid I going to disappoint them & I will be extremely embarrassed.
This is causing severe anxiety as I can’t sleep or eat & I am a diabetic- my glucose has been in th 500’s. Clearly I must want to not make it to my milestone. I have to pay this venue & vendors next week and I am stressed.
I am a person who likes to help everyone “bring water to your dry places” always fill you with encouragement to keep going. For we all have a purpose and if I an able to help you get there I will. But right now I can’t help myself & I am desperate and begging and I know this is selfish of me -as there are people sick just praying for one more day of life. Please forgive me.
But I am Faithful to God, he would not have brought me this far to let me fall.
But if so that I do not prevail it is for his will to be done – that I Trust.
Thank you tremendously in Advance if you can Help me. If not still Thank you for taking the time to read.